Almost time to go!

9-2-10




Happy Birthday Brandy!!



I am amused that it is 90210 day.



I am sleepy.



Thank goodness today is my last work day for 4 days. Sleeping in tomorrow will be super gratifying.



I love these foggy mornings. They remind me of the fall, which is my favorite time of year. It reminds me of the beginning of the school year, when there was that possibility of so many good things. Some people think of January first as the way to start fresh. September has been my month of change. I seem to always change jobs around now. I have ended relationships in Sept. Hell, I had a kid in Aug, which I know isn’t Sept, but it is close to that time frame. It is a big deal to me. I have holidays on the horizon. I have cooling weather which means fun clothes. Aside from freaking football, it is a great time for me.



Brandy, Bobby and I went to the giant Forever 21 in Lakewood. Shoot, we thought the one in Del Amo was big. This one was massive. More clothing, and roomy. The music was way too freaking loud in there (I guess we are officially too old?). We had to scream over it to talk.



The one pair of “disco” ball earrings was lame as I suspected. I was kind of relieved. I was bummed too that we didn’t find the guitar necklace. We did find suitable substitutes in the form of earrings that can be converted into a pendent. We also got one necklace with a guitar, turntables, headphones and a music note on it that Bobby liked. It will need to be moved to a shorter chain, but it may provide him with a fun one.



Next time I have some spare cash I may need to do a shopping blow out at the store. They have a lot of clothing I like and jewelry, but I was being good yesterday. I only splurged $10 on a shirt for each of the boys at Target. It is Halloween time, and they always have good $5 shirts for them. I figure I should stock up since it is the beginning of the school year, and I need to get rid of all the shirts that don’t fit. And more specifically, they will start to have school shirts and play shirts. I just got a little giddy.



Ken and I had a good talk about my bowling stresses. There have been some agreements including that we are going to get the boys to start using the boys restroom and that I will not take them anymore. They need to learn how to use a stall since both of them will be in school. Bobby especially has to get over his fear of these things. The bowling alley is a perfect place to practice since it is close and there are all people there that are good folk and know the boys. They are really safe there.



I am finding these articles that keep popping up about “friend” etiquette quite amusing. There was one yesterday talking about how to unfriend someone and how you should only have friends online that you are actually friends with and that you should clean up your friend list. I still say, why??? This isn’t like you have 200 people that you have following you around. I would venture a guess that a good chunk of them hide your feed and that the handful that read it, don’t even care that much. Facebook isn’t designed to only keep tabs on exes and to have a way to post pictures. I like to think of it as a way to meet new people. A way to escape the world with a bunch of people that you don’t necessarily see on a regular basis. A way to post ideas and thoughts and whatever you think is interesting, and just think, when no one comments, it means that you probably don’t need to tell those stories to people IRL. It is a training ground on how to socialize. Oh, yes, and apparently to farm. LOL!



I have a funky kink in my neck. I think it is computer related.



Tomorrow a compromise has been reached. The boys will go over to daycare in the morning. It will allow me to do the finishing touches on the house in terms of us going away, plus I can get the car ready to go. Ken will get home hopefully around noon, at which time we will get the boys and head out. Woo!



Why is this the one sleepy day? I can’t stay awake. I wonder how long I could get away with crawling into the back of my car and napping.



I hate it when I get an eyelash in my eye and I can’t find it.



Sigh. Just when I had settled in on being annoyed with the coach, she gets all charity case on me. She chats me last night on FB to tell me that he aunt just died, he uncle had a stroke the same day. She can’t pay her rent and has no job. She tells me this is just the tip of the iceberg. Neat. She had not intended on telling me all of this, I think, but just in chatting I guess even over cyberspace I am a person that people like to talk to. I feel special. LOL! Anyhoo, she would like to have a practice session before the game on the 11th, which I think is an excellent idea. It sounds like one of the nights next week we will meet up for an hour. I will be curious to see how it goes. Ken of course saw this chatting and instantly started looking up how to become a coach. It is so time for me to get my ass in shape.



What do you think of the name Beatrix? Don’t worry. Any hypothetical daughter I have already has a name. Her name is Ezra Jayde. If I have a hypothetical son, his name is still up for debate. Ken keeps pushing for Jayne. I keep telling him not a chance in hell. So for now, it is up in the air, much like the decision to have another child.



I feel very distracted today. I was just talking to a coworker and I seriously could not focus on what she was saying. What is up with that? Ok, in all fairness, on that one I think it was because I don’t like her and I didn’t want to help her, but since it was work related, it was something I kind of needed to help her on. But even so, I tend to not feel so detached.



I want to get this book called One Day. I am torn on how. It could possibly be the first book I could get on the Kindle, but I am still not sold on this. I considered getting it on the Kindle App on iTty so that I have a book with me at all times. That being said, I love the feel of a book. I also have plenty of room in my purse to carry a book right now. I also then can loan said book to people if it rocks much easier in book form. It is a $10 book. Sigh.



I get to go to Target tomorrow morning by myself! LOL! Ken had some errands to run and I told him he should go by and get the crate I forgot to get last night. He pointed out that I have time tomorrow morning between his class and the kids being at Maria’s, I have me time! Holy crap! I don’t really like the idea of dragging all the stuff in the car over to Target, but it is a minor issue. So I can go get the crate and maybe that book (yay) and other items for the trip. We will see.



My hair needs coloring. I wonder if I should attempt it tonight. And if so, do I want to try a new shade? Shocking pink? Electric Blue? Radical Red?



I keep having random, vivid dreams. The parts I remember are making me confused since I swear, I don’t know if they were dreamed or done in real life. I made a cup of coffee at work. Or did I? I got in a fight with a coworker about the noise from my fan. Or did I? I started working out again. Or did I? I sang to some people. Or did I? It is all very crazy.



I know it is silly to be excited for my school walks, but it is something I am really looking forward to. It will get me moving, which will in turn, get me moving.



My distraction mode right now keeps me too inside my head. It is a dangerous place, my head. It is like one of those haunted houses that are at all Halloween Fairs. It is cheap walls with random people jumping out to scare you as you travel along. The scares in my house, though, are not costumed, minimum wage employees. They are self esteem issues and money stress and to do lists galore. It really can cause a fright.



Sigh. The distraction day turns into an ugly day.



I feel a little better now. I noticed that it was almost noon. Only a few short hours till freedom. I found out that Holly is already at the compound, which is super happy making. This is a big weekend for Lyn. Her son’s wedding reception. Her daughter and granddaughter’s birthdays. Crazy!