Tonks

9-2-11


Happy Birthday, Brandy!! Sheesh, how did we get so damn old? We have known each other since we were what, 11? Holy fuck, 25 years??? Good god!

I am feeling groovy this morning. I slept (thank you Tylenol PM) and was cozy since for some reason I was freezing last night. Not complaining, mind you. I love it when I am cold at night. I had dreams within dreams, too, which was fun. I know I was in a church at one point, and there were left over baked goods from a baby shower for someone having a little boy. At one point, the church goes into lock down and the fire sprinklers turned on. I grabbed a bible, which was encased in silver and had beautiful designs all over it. When I finally opened it, I realized it wasn’t a bible, but the answers to all my questions. No one seems to see what I had, so I put it in my back pocket.

There was also a point in which I was at an all night party with a lot of people I had not seen in a while. It was so great, too. I remember as the sun was coming up, and people were just heading out, I was so very content and warm. It was a beautiful feeling, really.

Honestly, that Tylenol PM must have some kind of LSD in it.

I have been reading a book called Breaking up with God. It is fascinating. I may not be a believer, but I am very interested in how people have faith and how they worship. This woman goes from being deeply in love with God and even studying to become a minister to questioning everything she has been a part of for her whole life. There are numerous paragraphs in which she discusses certain people’s versions of their God. They are insightful and beautiful. I love faith, I just am not one to put all of my soul in one God’s basket. I am not even sure if I can say I could worship any kind of deity. Honestly, though, there is something very cool about people who truly feel that comfort from a feeling.

From the book: "The question of God's existence will not get you very far. It's a question human beings can't answer. But the word GOD is operating the world, and when you ask 'Does God exist?' you have already spoken the word GOD, so God in some sense already exists. The symbol is very much alive."

I found that to be interesting and cool.

I am really looking forward to the Farmer’s Market tomorrow. We are going to bring a cooler in the car so that after we get our stuff, we can put the food in there while we walk the park twice. Is it bad I want to walk it three times?

Tomorrow night I am going with Stephanie and Kam to Howl at the Moon. Should be a lot of fun. I suppose Stephanie and I need to decide who gets to drink. LOL!

Bobby’s practice went well. Bobby is getting better. His real problem is just that he spaces out. I don’t think it is a problem in general. I have seen this kid focus. I think that soccer just isn’t as interesting to him as it is to other kids. LOL!

We were unable to find out Dax’s teacher. They won’t have it until Tuesday. Yes, that’s right, the day before the first day of school. Look, I like my school a lot, but this is pretty freaking sad. Not like it is a huge deal to us, but it is to the teachers. They like to have the names so they can start personalizing things and getting things ready. It is just lame, but what are you gonna do, right?

Dax’s practice is tonight. I worked with Dax a lot last night with dribbling. He is getting much better. He also seems to get bored, though, when it comes to working with me. I don’t see a huge soccer career with either one of my boys. Honestly, I am way ok with this. I want them to find their own path.

I visited my kittens. Rudy has been adopted. Although I miss her, I am happy she found a home. Kit and Buddha are left, and goodness, how they have grown. Both rocked me some purrs, which made me happy. I also visited my orange love. She is a dirty orange, just like Goosh. She is a doll. I want her. I don’t know that it will happen, though. The man may keep me down. LOL! Sorry, Ken. Not trying to be mean. I just love her and want her. In case you didn’t already know that.

I think I want to name her Tonks. Of course, her full name would have to be Nymphadora Tonks, but Tonks for short.