Super Short

2-6-14

Sick and monthly.

It hit me yesterday as my nose was like a faucet and I felt achy. I not only am dealing with the chick deal, but now I seem to have been hit with a small cold. By the time I got home yesterday, I was exhausted and ready for bed. Of course, I still had to deal with homework, making dinner, working on some light dog training and other normal household things. Luckily I was able to fall asleep pretty quickly, and hard, after Ken went to soccer. So much so that Bobby at some point came into our room and placed his blanket on the bed for Ken to fix. He most likely said something to me, but I either didn’t hear while in my coma or I talked to him while asleep, which apparently happens a lot with me.

I really don’t want to go to the board meeting tonight. I know I don’t need to. Hell, if there ever was a time I didn’t need to be somewhere, it would be tonight. I have no checks needing cut, and even if I did, I can send Ken with the checkbook and they can handle it. We will see how I feel later. I know I am lame if I don’t go being that I should, but dammit, they got a whole day from me on Saturday.

Of course, there is the fact that I could walk to the meeting in the rain, which sounds strangely appealing. It may be the only thing that sways my vote.

Then again, listening to the rain while at Steve is even better.

I have been feeling really down about myself lately. The chant from the voices is getting harder to ignore. I have mostly kept all this internal, hoping that my strong voices can fight the demons, but I worry at times I am losing. I need to really buckle down and be good to me. I am considering the idea of postponing homework by 45 minutes. If I let the kids chill for a bit when we get home, and then I can go on a walk. This may allow for less fight with the work and it allows me to unwind. It is an interesting plan. I am always wanting to get the homework done quickly so we don’t have to deal with it, but it might not be as awful to “deal with” if everyone is in a different presence of mind.