My foggy existence

3-3-09

Another day of being in a fog. I got something like 7 hours of sleep last night but for some reason I just can’t get enough rest to restart. I need to do some more exercise since that would probably wake me up more.

Ken took Bobby to work with him yesterday, which has got us thinking that we could probably do that more often so that we only pay for part time for him. I would like to have him in preschool, but until that happens, this might be a good plan. I was reading up on what kids need to know to go to kindergarten and he knows a lot, just not enough. Like he needs to know how to write his name and a few things like that. So I may need to start working with him. I wonder if I can teach Dax this stuff, too.

I started watching P.S. I Love You yesterday. First off, Gerard Butler with the rockin Irish Accent-let’s just take a moment. Mmmmmmmmmm…..Ok, I am back. I didn’t get to watch all of it. Apparently my copy from HBO was jacked up due to some satellite issues. I set it up to retape, but I am nervous about the viewing. Within 10 minutes of the movie I was balling. Just sobbing. For those of you who don’t know, it is about a married couple, and the dude dies. I am not giving anything away, people. That is part of the information on the flick. At one point, Hilary Swank is curled up in bed after the funeral, with her husband’s urn at the foot of the bed, and she keeps redialing her dead husband’s cell phone to hear his voice mail just to hear his voice. I am telling you, I am crying even thinking about it. So clearly this is a movie I will be watching by myself with no kids or husband in the room. Stupid me, ever since I had kids, my flood gates are very weak.

We went with Ken over to Grandview for Aaron’s last class of the day. I guess Aaron needed help. So the boys and I wandered the school and they played on the equipment. We also found a little stage and seating area. So I sat down and had the boys dance for me. It was so cute. When they were done, they even took a bow. One of those times that clearly I should have had my camera.

As much as it was like pissing on the good doctor’s grave, we let the boys watch Cat in the Hat last night in honor of Dr. Seuss’s birthday. They love the hell out of that stupid movie. We got home later than normal since we had a Target run, so they stayed up a smidge later. It seemed to be fine, since both passed out pretty quick. I picked up more of the Sesame Street books in the dollar aisle at Target, which Dax was thrilled at. He really is digging on those characters. I know, I have now brought the devil that is Elmo into my house, but if it pleases my kid, I deal. Plus, you can’t hear his voice in a book. LOL! Dax even let me tuck him in. He never likes to be under the covers. Last night he tells me he is cold. Lately when he tells me this, we have been showing him how blankets keep him warm. So we cover him with his knit blanket over his blankets. Last night I asked him if he wanted to get under the covers, and he was very enthusiastic about it. I almost cried with happy when I got to tuck in both my kids for bed. It was so cool! It doesn’t look like Dax stayed under the covers all night, but it took Bobby some time. We don’t have them sleep under sheets, just lots of blankets because they thrash a lot, and if we had to make the bed with sheets each day, well, let’s just say I would go crazy. But perhaps it is almost time for Bobby.

I wrote up a chore list that we are going to use with Bobby. It isn’t hard stuff. Shoot, most of it is things he already does like getting dressed. But we wanted to start encouraging him to be good instead of just punishing him when he is bad. So when he does these things, he will get stars. If he has all of his stars at the end of the day (or most, since you have to give him some wiggle room) he gets story and game night. If he loses stars or doesn’t earn enough, he won’t get those things. We also came up with ways to get more stars like trying new foods or being a good helper. Tammy also suggested that we not only put stars on the board, but give him tokens and at the end of a month, he can trade his tokens for real money or prizes. Shoot, we could totally just start getting things for a prize box that we can then show him how he can “buy” things that all have a price tag. Way awesome. We are going to let Dax do the same thing, just slightly less since he is younger. He isn’t going to be able to get fully dressed on his own. He can strip down naked, but he isn’t 100% on the getting dressed part yet. So perhaps that will be the extra stars. Either way, we are getting them into some good practice for things like school. I am wondering if I can set up a 30 minute class time. Am I being overly ambitious?

It is square root day? LOL!

I have pretty much settled in on the idea that in a couple months I am going to cut my hair. Not sure of the style yet, so now I am on the hunt. I just feel that I need a change and that is the cheapest way. Yes, I have other things I want to work towards, but this is a quickie thing. I have not decided on if I am going to go funky color yet. I may just get those fake strips of color. I know, Ken told me that all the freaking SAHM’s that pick up their kids from the schools have them, but I think I will wear them better.

I have a work out tonight, which is cool. I always feel so good afterwards. I am glad when the 30 minutes is done, but I also bummed when it is over at the same time. It is a good time, too, since the boys run like crazy. Bobby has his own profile on the Wii and he does the running, which is so freaking cute. I need to video him running one of these days. Hopefully Ken leaves my camera at home and I will be able to take it with me tonight.

We get the car back today, I think. No more mini van. I have enjoyed it, but I think that I would want a different one if we buy one at some point. Really, I would be happy with a cheap one as long as it has bucket seats in the second row, and automatic doors. Although, to be perfectly honest, I would even give that up since I think a mini van in general would be good. I wish I had thought ahead when I got the PT. I wish I had considered getting a van then. Stupid me.

I downloaded a bunch of stuff from Wikipedia this morning to read. I have some accounts to go through, but I think that I needed to wake up first. Reading some interesting stuff should get me going. It is probably a good thing I don’t have books downloaded here since I wouldn’t get anything done.

Why doesn’t lipstick look good on me? I always try to wear it, but I don’t know that it looks right. I may have the wrong shade. It would be interesting to have a real stylist or something do a color thing with me. I am pretty sure I don’t have the right shades of anything in terms of makeup. Everything is too harsh. I need something softer. Like the whole breakfast club makeover. Then again, I thought Ally Sheedy looked better before.

I just had a flashback of one of my dreams last night. It wasn’t good. My dad was dying. I remember him on this couch and I went in. He had died, or so we thought. I remember getting down next to him and yelling, “Daddy” and then he woke up again. It was scary. He was clearly sick from something. It was a short dream, and I didn’t wake up crying or anything. It was freaky. Normally I would wake up crying from something so intense, but it was like it was such a minor dream I didn’t even remember it until right now. Odd.