8-31-11
I was able to put on a pair of jeans on that I own that I have not worn in forever. Even though they were still a bit tight, I was just excited to be able to zip them up with no real struggle. I am excited at my progress. I have lost a total of 18 pounds since my adventure has begun. I know that it will not always be this easy, nor will it come off this quickly as I lose more. This is that beginning crap that is nice if only because it inspires me to keep going.
I did my walk yesterday, and then I also worked out on my parents’ Bowflex. I did 5 sets of 3 exercises, with 20 of each of those 3. I am sore. I love it! It wasn’t as exhausting as something like the Wii Fit, but I know it stretched my muscles. I figure I get to do it on Tuesdays each week. I want to keep switching it up each day. I still will do my walks, but my second 30 minutes of exercise each day can be something different each time. One day Wii Fit, one day dancing, one day Bowflex. Hell, I may even mix it up with some other things. We shall see. Perhaps once or twice a week, depending on my busy, I will drive over to Wilson park and walk longer. It will keep me from getting bored.
I just read David Cross’s book “I Drink For A Reason”. Quite interesting and fun. Some of his random is, well, super random, but I still maintain this man is a brilliant dude.
No boss man today. I am quite happy.
My children need to be back in school. They are at each other’s throats.
Two of my babies got adopted. This leaves two more down there. Since the shelter was dumb and only took one kitten’s picture for all 4, I don’t really know who was adopted. I know Smokey was, since there are only girls left. I also know Buddha is left, only because her description still says gray. So I don’t know if Rudy or Kit is left. Today after going with Stephanie, I need to go and look. I need to know. My orange kitty is still there, too. I think I need to find out if Rudy is left, and if she is not, there is a distinct possibility I want the orange one.
Yeah, I know, I don’t NEED any more animals. Doesn’t mean I don’t want them.
Sleep was not my friend last night, so I treated myself to a cup of coffee this morning. I had a very low calorie breakfast of a turkey sandwich with mustard (only a tiny smidge) and no mayo. I figured it was not going to kill me. I just checked my blood sugar, and it is still under 100. I think I am fine. I am also rockin my water.
I will not be able to walk today, but I think I will at least do the Wii Fit tonight. The boys LOVE it when I do that. They like watching the crazy. I have been doing a lot of the running and things like that. It goes by so much quicker with my audience of boys, husband and dogs under foot.
I wonder how many calories I burn when I shake my leg. I do it constantly. Apparently, after some Google searching, it looks like shaking one’s legs is good for some extra calories to be burned. Woo hoo! Who knew my fidgeting was good for me. So is chewing gum. I need to start drinking more of my green tea, too. It has just been too hot to think about tea. Of course, I could always just pour it in my ice and drink it that way.
I think the plan this weekend is to paint the front part of the trim and new wood on the porch. That may take a lot of time, but it needs to be done.
When we go to the Farmer’s Market on Saturday, I want to walk around the park twice. .91 miles is once around. Not enough!
I need a real pedometer.
I have not missed Coke as much as I thought I would. Don’t get me wrong, I do miss it. It just hasn’t been as crucial to me. I also have cut back on milk. I used to have at least a glass a day. I had my first glass of milk last night in like a week. The good news is my heart burn issues have been non- existent, which helps in me feeling the need for it. Plus, I am terrified of my blood sugar shooting through the roof. It is funny that eliminating those items has probably helped me significantly.
I am sad. My big toe nail on my left foot has decided it doesn’t like me anymore. At some point it developed a crack, and when I stubbed it yesterday, I aggravated said crack and it is clear that the reason I still have nail is due to the pretty polish. I had been looking forward to pedicures as a regular outing, but my big toe will not be involved in this for a bit since the break is bad. I even made bad puns like how I was going to set aside cash for my pedicures and call it pedi-cash. Yeah, I said it and no, I will not take it back. I just hope that it grows fast.
For the first time in a long time, I just turned off my fan at my desk. I am actually feeling a bit chilly. I am liking this!
Turns out I was wrong about Dax’s appt. It is not till next Friday. I suppose this is good. It means a little less stress this week.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
6 more pounds!!!
8-30-11
I would have written yesterday had it not been for my work computer finally throwing in the towel and completely dying. On the plus side, the hard drive was fine and my newer machine seems to be keeping up with me significantly better. I did not mind being down for 3 hours, especially since no one was in the office, so I could sit and read my book.
I weighed myself on the Wii yesterday, and apparently I have lost 6 more pounds in the last week. I am not too shocked, only because I know I have been working hard. Still, it is almost unbelievable at the same time.
We went to find out what the boys’ classrooms are. Good thing we went when we did. Turns out, there are very few kindergarteners this year, so they wanted to assess every kinder student. Mrs. Fasheh and Mrs. Lee happened to be there, so even though it was past the time frame each day that they were doing this, they gladly took the 10 minutes to do this for Dax.
Dax of course blew them out of the water.
Kid counted to 100. He not only knew his colors based on the color, but on the word as well. He knows all his capital letters and lower case letters. He writes his name well. He just needs to work on some penmanship, which will come with practice. Mrs. Fasheh and Mrs Lee said they both would love him for their class.
Mrs Fasheh told me that they are making the classes even with skill sets so that the classes are balanced. Plus, they are using a new model for their lesson plans, and a new reading program, so it should be interesting. Plus, the 40 something wall words from last year have been reduced down to 30. First graders have more, but I think we will be ok.
Bobby has Mrs Kelly for 1st grade. I remember her I think and I know she was awesome. Plus, when we looked at his class list, his best friends were mostly in his class, which is good. It is also right next to Dax’s old classroom, which helps in logistics when it comes to pick up for both the boys. Yay!
Bobby looked nervous when we were at the school. I am thinking when we walk tomorrow, I will stop at the school and introduce him to his new teacher since I think she is supposed to be there. I think it may help.
Dax, of course, was just excited. He can’t wait to be a real kinder student. It will be an interesting year.
After our walk, I swam and played with the boys for a while. It was hot out, and the water was really nice. I know that they also enjoy it when I go in the pool with them.
With swimming around for 45 minutes, walking that mile or so, and then 35 minutes on the Wii, I kicked ass exercise wise yesterday. Today I will walk and then when we go to my folks’ house, I am going to use the Bowflex.
Man, my week looks to be busy in the evenings. Tomorrow, I am going with Stephanie for a doctor appt. Thursday, it is soccer practice time. Friday, Dax has his wellness checkup and also practice! Goodness! It has been suggested that we might go to Howl on Saturday night, and Saturday we might go hang out with a friend of Dax’s. Saturday morning, Brandy is coming with us to the farmer’s marker, and I would also like to take Brandy out at some point over the weekend for her birthday. I am hoping I do get to sleep at some point. LOL!!
Ken got me a super food processor. It is amazing. I have already made a smoothie! I want to start making ones with protein. I am thinking almonds. I have decided I like them. I tried some at the famer’s market that were flavored. Brandy suggested I roast some of my own in Agave and cinnamon. Sounded yummy, and I liked the idea. Too bad I burnt a lot of them. Grrr… Oh well, I will just need to try again.
I had chicken for breakfast that I baked in cream of chicken soup. It was nummy. I didn’t eat the soup, just the meat from the chicken. Lots of protein I figure. I am big on protein right now. It is keeping me free of too many carbs and sugar.
After my workouts yesterday, I felt amazing. Runner’s high is not a myth for sure. I am anxious to keep going.
I would have written yesterday had it not been for my work computer finally throwing in the towel and completely dying. On the plus side, the hard drive was fine and my newer machine seems to be keeping up with me significantly better. I did not mind being down for 3 hours, especially since no one was in the office, so I could sit and read my book.
I weighed myself on the Wii yesterday, and apparently I have lost 6 more pounds in the last week. I am not too shocked, only because I know I have been working hard. Still, it is almost unbelievable at the same time.
We went to find out what the boys’ classrooms are. Good thing we went when we did. Turns out, there are very few kindergarteners this year, so they wanted to assess every kinder student. Mrs. Fasheh and Mrs. Lee happened to be there, so even though it was past the time frame each day that they were doing this, they gladly took the 10 minutes to do this for Dax.
Dax of course blew them out of the water.
Kid counted to 100. He not only knew his colors based on the color, but on the word as well. He knows all his capital letters and lower case letters. He writes his name well. He just needs to work on some penmanship, which will come with practice. Mrs. Fasheh and Mrs Lee said they both would love him for their class.
Mrs Fasheh told me that they are making the classes even with skill sets so that the classes are balanced. Plus, they are using a new model for their lesson plans, and a new reading program, so it should be interesting. Plus, the 40 something wall words from last year have been reduced down to 30. First graders have more, but I think we will be ok.
Bobby has Mrs Kelly for 1st grade. I remember her I think and I know she was awesome. Plus, when we looked at his class list, his best friends were mostly in his class, which is good. It is also right next to Dax’s old classroom, which helps in logistics when it comes to pick up for both the boys. Yay!
Bobby looked nervous when we were at the school. I am thinking when we walk tomorrow, I will stop at the school and introduce him to his new teacher since I think she is supposed to be there. I think it may help.
Dax, of course, was just excited. He can’t wait to be a real kinder student. It will be an interesting year.
After our walk, I swam and played with the boys for a while. It was hot out, and the water was really nice. I know that they also enjoy it when I go in the pool with them.
With swimming around for 45 minutes, walking that mile or so, and then 35 minutes on the Wii, I kicked ass exercise wise yesterday. Today I will walk and then when we go to my folks’ house, I am going to use the Bowflex.
Man, my week looks to be busy in the evenings. Tomorrow, I am going with Stephanie for a doctor appt. Thursday, it is soccer practice time. Friday, Dax has his wellness checkup and also practice! Goodness! It has been suggested that we might go to Howl on Saturday night, and Saturday we might go hang out with a friend of Dax’s. Saturday morning, Brandy is coming with us to the farmer’s marker, and I would also like to take Brandy out at some point over the weekend for her birthday. I am hoping I do get to sleep at some point. LOL!!
Ken got me a super food processor. It is amazing. I have already made a smoothie! I want to start making ones with protein. I am thinking almonds. I have decided I like them. I tried some at the famer’s market that were flavored. Brandy suggested I roast some of my own in Agave and cinnamon. Sounded yummy, and I liked the idea. Too bad I burnt a lot of them. Grrr… Oh well, I will just need to try again.
I had chicken for breakfast that I baked in cream of chicken soup. It was nummy. I didn’t eat the soup, just the meat from the chicken. Lots of protein I figure. I am big on protein right now. It is keeping me free of too many carbs and sugar.
After my workouts yesterday, I felt amazing. Runner’s high is not a myth for sure. I am anxious to keep going.
Friday, August 26, 2011
I rocked soccer!
8-26-11
I swear, I have done nothing this morning so far. I have been here since 5 and I have surfed the web (does anyone even use that phrase anymore?), played with Evernote, and fucked around on my iPad. Seriously, today is going to be long.
I am tired. I helped out at Dax’s practice last night. Even though I didn’t do all the running they did, I tried to keep up in terms of doing some of the skill exercises they worked on. I also fielded throw ins for Dax and his teammate, Aidan. It was a lot of work! I enjoyed it, though. Coach Ed was great and I am so pleased that both the boys have ended up with such awesome coaches.
And even though I probably should not have, I have become team mom to both teams. It isn’t like it is tons of work, so I should be ok. I only have to come up with a snack schedule, plan a party, and be the point of contact. I can handle those things. Ken is making both banners. Not too big a deal since it will all just be simple felt. Dax’s team just needs a name. Bobby’s team name is the Lazers.
Grammie is coming out to visit tomorrow. Normally, this would be cool, but my relationship with her is odd these days. First, she thinks I have her copy of a picture she found of her and her dad. I do not have this. For the past year or so, she has mentioned it since she showed it to me right before I went to Ohio last year. She wants it. I assumed I had it, but after going through everything, I do not. In fact, if anything, it was left at my parents’ house. Either way, she thinks I have it. She gets cranky.
Secondly, she apparently found out from her sister in law that I have diabetes. She is mad that she didn’t find out from me or my mother. Look, it isn’t like I was calling everyone I know when I got the diagnosis. There isn’t exactly a card from granddaughter to grandmother saying, Roses are Red, Violets are blue. I have Diabetes, how are you? I pointed out to my mom last night that if she got on facebook, she wouldn’t have to hear from her sister in law, who IS on facebook, about my life. I use facebook to tell the masses about things. It is easier than a ton of phone calls.
Lastly, Grammie has decided to bitch about my mother to me. I am fiercely loyal to my mother, especially when it comes to any family giving her shit. I don’t refer to my dad’s mom as Grandma because of her bullshit. I certainly don’t need to hear shit from my mom’s mom.
The shit in question is from the Thanksgiving debacle.
A couple years back, the host family for Thanksgiving was my parents. My mother and her sibs rotate houses each year. This particular year, my mom went all out. She told my aunt, grandmother and cousins to be over at the house early. She had the football game on so my uncle and cousin would not miss it. She had snacks. She had drinks. It was tons of making sure it was an awesome day of visiting with family.
Ken, the boys and I of course showed up when we were asked to be. No one else showed up till almost 2, a good 5 hours after my mom told them to come. First, my uncle wanted to watch part of the game before they left. Then they got stuck in traffic. These were bullshit excuses, especially since we told them to come early so that they didn’t get stuck in traffic and they could watch the game. They showed up even after the time we were going to eat. On top of that, we ate, and they were all pretty much ready to leave. There were no apologies. There was no family visiting. It was bullshit, and my mom was PISSED!
My parents decided that no longer would we participate in Thanksgiving. Mind you, this wasn’t the first time that the family was rude. Thanksgivings always felt kind of like a long distance drive though. The only time I think that we really visited was in Vegas, and even then, it wasn’t much.
Now, my mom only has my aunt Jo. 4 siblings down to 2. Jo now lives with Grammie. So they get to bond (or fight, I am sure) on a daily basis. This has actually made them closer. It also has made Grammie only see Jo’s side on all of this.
Last time I was out there, Grammie decided to plead her concerns to me. Sigh. I don’t want to deal with this. Grammie thinks my mom is abandoning the family. Really? The only daughter that visits a ton, and makes sure she is involved is really trying to make it out like my mom is the villain?
What is funny is that Jo and my mom talk just fine. In fact, I think they are closer now than when they were kids. Either way, if Grammie has issues with her daughters, don’t tell the granddaughter.
She used to bitch to me about Granddaddy being an ass when I was 14. I didn’t appreciate that, either.
Thankfully, I have my boys. I use them for ways to get out of dealing with her too much. Granted, I also let my mom use them. Sometimes, my dad and I will take the hit on talking to Grammie while my mom plays with the boys.
I do want to say, I love Grammie. She is a quirky, odd broad. But truthfully, there are family members that I can tell I am way related to, and others, I wonder how that happened. She falls into the second bucket.
Sunday is a day we can finally use our Disneyland passes again. I think the plan is to go. It will allow me lots of walking around, and the boys could use it since they have been promised Disneyland now on two relative visits. Plus, with school starting back up in less than two weeks, a little bit of Disney will go a long way.
I wore some low heels today. I have been really wanting to wear larger ones, including the wedges that took my ass out. I have felt that my ankle is much better, and even my knee bruise is almost gone. That being said, I am glad I opted to only do these small ones. Turns out, the slight wobble that comes with these shoes does still mess with the sprain. Thankfully I sit most of the day so I am not messing it up too bad.
Once again, being home would have been a wonderful option today. I could have slept in. Instead, I am trying very hard to suck it up yet again. I always say I will leave at noon. Well, if I can make it to noon, I can make it to 1:30. I am confident I can make it all day.
I swear, I have done nothing this morning so far. I have been here since 5 and I have surfed the web (does anyone even use that phrase anymore?), played with Evernote, and fucked around on my iPad. Seriously, today is going to be long.
I am tired. I helped out at Dax’s practice last night. Even though I didn’t do all the running they did, I tried to keep up in terms of doing some of the skill exercises they worked on. I also fielded throw ins for Dax and his teammate, Aidan. It was a lot of work! I enjoyed it, though. Coach Ed was great and I am so pleased that both the boys have ended up with such awesome coaches.
And even though I probably should not have, I have become team mom to both teams. It isn’t like it is tons of work, so I should be ok. I only have to come up with a snack schedule, plan a party, and be the point of contact. I can handle those things. Ken is making both banners. Not too big a deal since it will all just be simple felt. Dax’s team just needs a name. Bobby’s team name is the Lazers.
Grammie is coming out to visit tomorrow. Normally, this would be cool, but my relationship with her is odd these days. First, she thinks I have her copy of a picture she found of her and her dad. I do not have this. For the past year or so, she has mentioned it since she showed it to me right before I went to Ohio last year. She wants it. I assumed I had it, but after going through everything, I do not. In fact, if anything, it was left at my parents’ house. Either way, she thinks I have it. She gets cranky.
Secondly, she apparently found out from her sister in law that I have diabetes. She is mad that she didn’t find out from me or my mother. Look, it isn’t like I was calling everyone I know when I got the diagnosis. There isn’t exactly a card from granddaughter to grandmother saying, Roses are Red, Violets are blue. I have Diabetes, how are you? I pointed out to my mom last night that if she got on facebook, she wouldn’t have to hear from her sister in law, who IS on facebook, about my life. I use facebook to tell the masses about things. It is easier than a ton of phone calls.
Lastly, Grammie has decided to bitch about my mother to me. I am fiercely loyal to my mother, especially when it comes to any family giving her shit. I don’t refer to my dad’s mom as Grandma because of her bullshit. I certainly don’t need to hear shit from my mom’s mom.
The shit in question is from the Thanksgiving debacle.
A couple years back, the host family for Thanksgiving was my parents. My mother and her sibs rotate houses each year. This particular year, my mom went all out. She told my aunt, grandmother and cousins to be over at the house early. She had the football game on so my uncle and cousin would not miss it. She had snacks. She had drinks. It was tons of making sure it was an awesome day of visiting with family.
Ken, the boys and I of course showed up when we were asked to be. No one else showed up till almost 2, a good 5 hours after my mom told them to come. First, my uncle wanted to watch part of the game before they left. Then they got stuck in traffic. These were bullshit excuses, especially since we told them to come early so that they didn’t get stuck in traffic and they could watch the game. They showed up even after the time we were going to eat. On top of that, we ate, and they were all pretty much ready to leave. There were no apologies. There was no family visiting. It was bullshit, and my mom was PISSED!
My parents decided that no longer would we participate in Thanksgiving. Mind you, this wasn’t the first time that the family was rude. Thanksgivings always felt kind of like a long distance drive though. The only time I think that we really visited was in Vegas, and even then, it wasn’t much.
Now, my mom only has my aunt Jo. 4 siblings down to 2. Jo now lives with Grammie. So they get to bond (or fight, I am sure) on a daily basis. This has actually made them closer. It also has made Grammie only see Jo’s side on all of this.
Last time I was out there, Grammie decided to plead her concerns to me. Sigh. I don’t want to deal with this. Grammie thinks my mom is abandoning the family. Really? The only daughter that visits a ton, and makes sure she is involved is really trying to make it out like my mom is the villain?
What is funny is that Jo and my mom talk just fine. In fact, I think they are closer now than when they were kids. Either way, if Grammie has issues with her daughters, don’t tell the granddaughter.
She used to bitch to me about Granddaddy being an ass when I was 14. I didn’t appreciate that, either.
Thankfully, I have my boys. I use them for ways to get out of dealing with her too much. Granted, I also let my mom use them. Sometimes, my dad and I will take the hit on talking to Grammie while my mom plays with the boys.
I do want to say, I love Grammie. She is a quirky, odd broad. But truthfully, there are family members that I can tell I am way related to, and others, I wonder how that happened. She falls into the second bucket.
Sunday is a day we can finally use our Disneyland passes again. I think the plan is to go. It will allow me lots of walking around, and the boys could use it since they have been promised Disneyland now on two relative visits. Plus, with school starting back up in less than two weeks, a little bit of Disney will go a long way.
I wore some low heels today. I have been really wanting to wear larger ones, including the wedges that took my ass out. I have felt that my ankle is much better, and even my knee bruise is almost gone. That being said, I am glad I opted to only do these small ones. Turns out, the slight wobble that comes with these shoes does still mess with the sprain. Thankfully I sit most of the day so I am not messing it up too bad.
Once again, being home would have been a wonderful option today. I could have slept in. Instead, I am trying very hard to suck it up yet again. I always say I will leave at noon. Well, if I can make it to noon, I can make it to 1:30. I am confident I can make it all day.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
sore and tired
8-25-11
I am tired and sore. I did my walk yesterday, and walked a smidge longer than normal. I then got home and went to work at cleaning up my house. It was still suffering from the party hangover. I managed to get most of it done, including changing the bedding for the boys and starting the monstrous task of laundry. On the plus side, my efforts were rewards when Ken and the boys got home. Dax went in to put Bolt on his bed and I heard him exclaim, “Wow! Thanks, Mom! Bobby! Come see! Mom cleaned our room!!” I am a rock star.
I didn’t do my Wii workout, but based on how much energy output was involved with the housework, I think I will be ok.
Tonight the boys have soccer practice. I have become team parent to both teams now. I had written up an email to send to Bobby’s team after the team parent meeting, and went ahead and sent most of the same information to Dax’s team. Dax’s coach was thrilled that I had taken the initiative and said I really have been the only parent who has replied to his email. I am glad to help, and really, this team parent thing should be pretty damn easy.
Luckily, Dax’s practice starts first, so Ken will be able to hear the meeting in the beginning. He and Bobby will go to his practice when it is time, and I will stay with Dax and help out. I just hope I have something to wear to a soccer practice! I am wondering if I should get some cleats. LOL!!
I have a headache that almost feels like I am dehydrated. It isn’t possible, based on how many fluids I am consuming. I think I actually am suffering from some allergies. My throat has been acting up.
Yesterday, I also noticed I was kind of short of breath. Not by much, and of course, it was while I was walking, so I didn’t think much of it. I noticed it again last night, but of course, that turns into a panic attack, so I had to work to calm down. In fact, just talking about it now is making me kind of freak. This is kind of why I think it is my crazy. Of course, I don’t know the cause. It may just be my whole body calming down from stresses lately. I will keep an eye on it and make note of any subsequent attacks.
I am looking forward to Saturday morning. Brandy and I are going to the Torrance Farmer’s Market. I don’t plan on getting too many things, but just getting prices and ideas will be good. We also are going to walk the park a couple times for some exercise. It will get my exercise done early, which is awesome! Plus, it will be nice to have a new venue for the workout. I am debating on bringing Luna. I think I will not only because I know you can’t have dogs at the marketplace.
Speaking of Miss Luna, she has decided that her new bed is actually under the bed. She has taken to sleeping under Dax’s bed at night. When Ken told her to go to bed last night, she went under. It is really cute, too, since she will then peak her little head out of the under the bed. She is super content to sleep in there all night, so we are way happy with it. She goes through spurts with liking and disliking her crate, so really, I don’t care where she sleeps as long as she doesn’t get into trouble. I actually like her being in the boys’ room since it means she is closer to family. Lycos always slept in our room, but now with our current configuration, there is no room for Luna’s crate in there. Both dogs have liked spending time with the boys, and I think Luna has also benefitted from more time inside. I make a point of having the dogs in when I am home. It has helped her calm down a bit inside. There is still the chasing of random sunbeams of course, but that is all part of her charm.
I am happy to report that I am up to 3 doses of my blood sugar meds, and my stomach has finally adjusted. YAY! Also, my numbers have been consistently good. I have cut back on how often I test. I make sure to test when I have eaten something different, or have completed some activity that is unusual. I also test if I am not feeling well. But I am not feeling the need to test it 7 times a day anymore.
I had a dream that I had a coke last night. Wow it was good. I do miss it, but I have been coke free since I started my journey to healthy living.
My other dream was some kind of awesome Zombie flick that took place during some kind of zombie apocalypse in which about 2/3rd the population had become zombies. The only people who seemed to know how to fight them were the hacker geeks. In fact, they had a whole community, that was able to keep them out of their area. I went there, and they let me go talk to the master hacker, who was this kid. He was brilliant. He told me secrets for some reason on how to bring back the world. I remember having to go into this little strange elevator that was clearly taken from some other building and put into this new structure that was built after zombies had destroyed the original. The whole atmosphere was very industrial and whimsical all at the same time. It was freaking awesome. I love it when my dreams are purely for my entertainment.
I hate days like today. I just want to go home. I have stuff to do here. I just feel like being home. I am going to suck it up, though. I can make it.
I am tired and sore. I did my walk yesterday, and walked a smidge longer than normal. I then got home and went to work at cleaning up my house. It was still suffering from the party hangover. I managed to get most of it done, including changing the bedding for the boys and starting the monstrous task of laundry. On the plus side, my efforts were rewards when Ken and the boys got home. Dax went in to put Bolt on his bed and I heard him exclaim, “Wow! Thanks, Mom! Bobby! Come see! Mom cleaned our room!!” I am a rock star.
I didn’t do my Wii workout, but based on how much energy output was involved with the housework, I think I will be ok.
Tonight the boys have soccer practice. I have become team parent to both teams now. I had written up an email to send to Bobby’s team after the team parent meeting, and went ahead and sent most of the same information to Dax’s team. Dax’s coach was thrilled that I had taken the initiative and said I really have been the only parent who has replied to his email. I am glad to help, and really, this team parent thing should be pretty damn easy.
Luckily, Dax’s practice starts first, so Ken will be able to hear the meeting in the beginning. He and Bobby will go to his practice when it is time, and I will stay with Dax and help out. I just hope I have something to wear to a soccer practice! I am wondering if I should get some cleats. LOL!!
I have a headache that almost feels like I am dehydrated. It isn’t possible, based on how many fluids I am consuming. I think I actually am suffering from some allergies. My throat has been acting up.
Yesterday, I also noticed I was kind of short of breath. Not by much, and of course, it was while I was walking, so I didn’t think much of it. I noticed it again last night, but of course, that turns into a panic attack, so I had to work to calm down. In fact, just talking about it now is making me kind of freak. This is kind of why I think it is my crazy. Of course, I don’t know the cause. It may just be my whole body calming down from stresses lately. I will keep an eye on it and make note of any subsequent attacks.
I am looking forward to Saturday morning. Brandy and I are going to the Torrance Farmer’s Market. I don’t plan on getting too many things, but just getting prices and ideas will be good. We also are going to walk the park a couple times for some exercise. It will get my exercise done early, which is awesome! Plus, it will be nice to have a new venue for the workout. I am debating on bringing Luna. I think I will not only because I know you can’t have dogs at the marketplace.
Speaking of Miss Luna, she has decided that her new bed is actually under the bed. She has taken to sleeping under Dax’s bed at night. When Ken told her to go to bed last night, she went under. It is really cute, too, since she will then peak her little head out of the under the bed. She is super content to sleep in there all night, so we are way happy with it. She goes through spurts with liking and disliking her crate, so really, I don’t care where she sleeps as long as she doesn’t get into trouble. I actually like her being in the boys’ room since it means she is closer to family. Lycos always slept in our room, but now with our current configuration, there is no room for Luna’s crate in there. Both dogs have liked spending time with the boys, and I think Luna has also benefitted from more time inside. I make a point of having the dogs in when I am home. It has helped her calm down a bit inside. There is still the chasing of random sunbeams of course, but that is all part of her charm.
I am happy to report that I am up to 3 doses of my blood sugar meds, and my stomach has finally adjusted. YAY! Also, my numbers have been consistently good. I have cut back on how often I test. I make sure to test when I have eaten something different, or have completed some activity that is unusual. I also test if I am not feeling well. But I am not feeling the need to test it 7 times a day anymore.
I had a dream that I had a coke last night. Wow it was good. I do miss it, but I have been coke free since I started my journey to healthy living.
My other dream was some kind of awesome Zombie flick that took place during some kind of zombie apocalypse in which about 2/3rd the population had become zombies. The only people who seemed to know how to fight them were the hacker geeks. In fact, they had a whole community, that was able to keep them out of their area. I went there, and they let me go talk to the master hacker, who was this kid. He was brilliant. He told me secrets for some reason on how to bring back the world. I remember having to go into this little strange elevator that was clearly taken from some other building and put into this new structure that was built after zombies had destroyed the original. The whole atmosphere was very industrial and whimsical all at the same time. It was freaking awesome. I love it when my dreams are purely for my entertainment.
I hate days like today. I just want to go home. I have stuff to do here. I just feel like being home. I am going to suck it up, though. I can make it.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
cleats
8-23-11
My reports didn’t work, so I am on standby with my work load today.
It may actually give me an excuse to stay late today and get some OT. Ken and the boys are not home till 5 today, so I technically have the house to myself from 1:30 till then. Of course, I do have exercise to do.
I danced for an hour yesterday. It was fucking awesome. The boys were not as thrilled with this. Apparently it is not as much fun to watch mom dance like a white girl as it is to watch mom do imaginary Kung Fu.
I promised Luna that I would not just do the Wii today. She and I will go out on a journey.
My new gaming obsession has become the Sims on Facebook. It is less annoying than the Zynga games, which I am quickly becoming tired of. The problem is that I have invested so much time into them, I hate to walk away.
We got Dax’s cleats yesterday. He also got his very own soccer ball, which is black with green and a giant T-Rex on it. He was beyond thrilled. With their practices being this week, all my boys needed to be prepped. Even Ken got some cleats this weekend at Wallmart. I am starting to wonder if I need them.
As much as I said I would not be getting any new clothing any time soon, I do need to go and get some exercise pants. I did create a pair out of some flannel jammie pants I had, but I need a few more. Plus, I need niceish ones for going to things like soccer practice. I might need to look online for something from Old Navy. They appear to have a bunch of good ones. Next payday, I am stocking up.
I was in a bad mood yesterday evening. I felt over stressed. Dinner didn’t work the way it was supposed to. I was behind schedule. I had to yell at the kids. My twitch has increased quite a bit. I am hoping I can relax soon. I almost took a Xanax last night. Thankfully I fell asleep pretty easily.
Hell, had I known the reports would fuck up today, I would have taken the kids to Disneyland. Kam and her kids are there today, and it would have been a fun time. Oh well. Perhaps soon we can go with them.
We were going to take down the pool Labor Day weekend, but it sounds like there are multiple play dates coming soon. I would hate to have a crappy Park Brenan!
The boss is going to drive me nuts today. I should run. LOL!
My reports didn’t work, so I am on standby with my work load today.
It may actually give me an excuse to stay late today and get some OT. Ken and the boys are not home till 5 today, so I technically have the house to myself from 1:30 till then. Of course, I do have exercise to do.
I danced for an hour yesterday. It was fucking awesome. The boys were not as thrilled with this. Apparently it is not as much fun to watch mom dance like a white girl as it is to watch mom do imaginary Kung Fu.
I promised Luna that I would not just do the Wii today. She and I will go out on a journey.
My new gaming obsession has become the Sims on Facebook. It is less annoying than the Zynga games, which I am quickly becoming tired of. The problem is that I have invested so much time into them, I hate to walk away.
We got Dax’s cleats yesterday. He also got his very own soccer ball, which is black with green and a giant T-Rex on it. He was beyond thrilled. With their practices being this week, all my boys needed to be prepped. Even Ken got some cleats this weekend at Wallmart. I am starting to wonder if I need them.
As much as I said I would not be getting any new clothing any time soon, I do need to go and get some exercise pants. I did create a pair out of some flannel jammie pants I had, but I need a few more. Plus, I need niceish ones for going to things like soccer practice. I might need to look online for something from Old Navy. They appear to have a bunch of good ones. Next payday, I am stocking up.
I was in a bad mood yesterday evening. I felt over stressed. Dinner didn’t work the way it was supposed to. I was behind schedule. I had to yell at the kids. My twitch has increased quite a bit. I am hoping I can relax soon. I almost took a Xanax last night. Thankfully I fell asleep pretty easily.
Hell, had I known the reports would fuck up today, I would have taken the kids to Disneyland. Kam and her kids are there today, and it would have been a fun time. Oh well. Perhaps soon we can go with them.
We were going to take down the pool Labor Day weekend, but it sounds like there are multiple play dates coming soon. I would hate to have a crappy Park Brenan!
The boss is going to drive me nuts today. I should run. LOL!
Monday, August 22, 2011
the party was a success!
8-22-11
I think a nap is in order.
I started running around at 8 am on Friday. I managed to get a good chunk of all of the supplies I needed by about 10 am. In fact, I was feeling pretty relaxed over all since I didn’t have to stress about time. I went to the house where Ken, Andy and Papa Brenan were working on the roof. The boys had elected to go to Maria’s since they were invited to a graduation party for the kids going to kindergarten this year.
I headed out to pick up Ma Brenan at the hotel. The plan was that the guys would work on the roof until noon, which was when we were going to go and watch the ceremony. They had one of the water slide bouncers, and they were having a good ole time. We went for the presentation of a gift and a certificate, and then opted to just let the boys stay a while more.
Ma and I went to Toys R Us to pick out a present for Dax. It is very hard for me to point out things for him with someone else’s checkbook. I felt weird since I was always concerned about price. We did manage to find an awesome Avatar airbending game and a couple of remote control spiders (one for each boy).
By the time we got home, it was getting late enough that cup caking was in order. I mixed the batter and the cupcakes themselves turned out pretty good! El Pollo Loco was picked up and after dinner, I had my minions, um, I mean, helpers, frost the cupcakes and do sprinkles. Little dinosaurs were placed on top and voilà!
Ken and I got up around 7 Saturday morning. Andy got up soon after. We got the yard all set up, house ready and were pretty much prepped to go early. Of course, the bouncer showed up a little late. Sigh. I can’t really get too upset. It was free.
We had a great turn out. Everything seemed to go well. We didn’t anticipate how many kids would be fascinated with the pool, though. Just about everyone ended up in there by the end. Of course, it helped that the dino hunt turned into an all out water fight with even the grownups. Ken, Andy and Chris did dino duty and they did awesome. The kids loved it, and it was a kick to watch.
Even the dino dig went well. Of course, it could have gone better had I done that BEFORE the water part. LOL! Oh well. The kids didn’t seem to care. Turns out my parties need to come with the warning, “Caution, participants may get wet.”
It went from 11 to about 3:30. It was great to see many of my friends. Our neighbors, the ones with the free bouncer rental, also came, and they were super sweet. Their kids were there, too, which was cool! It was really a perfect mix of family and friends.
After the crazy of the party, I started to finally relax. My blood sugar was high all day due to the stress. It was fine the day before and on Sunday. It is interesting to see how much the stress can mess with it. I am starting 3 pills today. I was going to yesterday, but my schedule was still out of wack.
I would love a day to rest, but it will not happen. Today I need to get back to exercise. Jenni sent me a dance Wii game, so that is how I will do some of my stuff today. I plan on walking, also, especially since the boys seem to really like it. As long as they are on scooters, it seems to go just fine. I tend to walk faster since I am trying to make sure Dax doesn’t get too far ahead.
I need to remember not to have my hair in pigtails when I am outside for a long time. My head got a sunburn.
There is an orange girl kitten at the shelter. I am trying to be good and not go adopt her. See, if I did, it would seem lame that I didn’t just keep Rudy. Of course, if I truly wanted to adopt, I could adopt Rudy. Of course, bottom line, I really don’t need another cat, but man, I hate loving these kittens!!
I think a nap is in order.
I started running around at 8 am on Friday. I managed to get a good chunk of all of the supplies I needed by about 10 am. In fact, I was feeling pretty relaxed over all since I didn’t have to stress about time. I went to the house where Ken, Andy and Papa Brenan were working on the roof. The boys had elected to go to Maria’s since they were invited to a graduation party for the kids going to kindergarten this year.
I headed out to pick up Ma Brenan at the hotel. The plan was that the guys would work on the roof until noon, which was when we were going to go and watch the ceremony. They had one of the water slide bouncers, and they were having a good ole time. We went for the presentation of a gift and a certificate, and then opted to just let the boys stay a while more.
Ma and I went to Toys R Us to pick out a present for Dax. It is very hard for me to point out things for him with someone else’s checkbook. I felt weird since I was always concerned about price. We did manage to find an awesome Avatar airbending game and a couple of remote control spiders (one for each boy).
By the time we got home, it was getting late enough that cup caking was in order. I mixed the batter and the cupcakes themselves turned out pretty good! El Pollo Loco was picked up and after dinner, I had my minions, um, I mean, helpers, frost the cupcakes and do sprinkles. Little dinosaurs were placed on top and voilà!
Ken and I got up around 7 Saturday morning. Andy got up soon after. We got the yard all set up, house ready and were pretty much prepped to go early. Of course, the bouncer showed up a little late. Sigh. I can’t really get too upset. It was free.
We had a great turn out. Everything seemed to go well. We didn’t anticipate how many kids would be fascinated with the pool, though. Just about everyone ended up in there by the end. Of course, it helped that the dino hunt turned into an all out water fight with even the grownups. Ken, Andy and Chris did dino duty and they did awesome. The kids loved it, and it was a kick to watch.
Even the dino dig went well. Of course, it could have gone better had I done that BEFORE the water part. LOL! Oh well. The kids didn’t seem to care. Turns out my parties need to come with the warning, “Caution, participants may get wet.”
It went from 11 to about 3:30. It was great to see many of my friends. Our neighbors, the ones with the free bouncer rental, also came, and they were super sweet. Their kids were there, too, which was cool! It was really a perfect mix of family and friends.
After the crazy of the party, I started to finally relax. My blood sugar was high all day due to the stress. It was fine the day before and on Sunday. It is interesting to see how much the stress can mess with it. I am starting 3 pills today. I was going to yesterday, but my schedule was still out of wack.
I would love a day to rest, but it will not happen. Today I need to get back to exercise. Jenni sent me a dance Wii game, so that is how I will do some of my stuff today. I plan on walking, also, especially since the boys seem to really like it. As long as they are on scooters, it seems to go just fine. I tend to walk faster since I am trying to make sure Dax doesn’t get too far ahead.
I need to remember not to have my hair in pigtails when I am outside for a long time. My head got a sunburn.
There is an orange girl kitten at the shelter. I am trying to be good and not go adopt her. See, if I did, it would seem lame that I didn’t just keep Rudy. Of course, if I truly wanted to adopt, I could adopt Rudy. Of course, bottom line, I really don’t need another cat, but man, I hate loving these kittens!!
Friday, August 19, 2011
last minute errands
8-19-11
I am not even sure how I am typing this. I am pretty sure I am asleep.
Before we headed over to soccer practice, we stopped by Build a Bear where the boys got to make new friends. Dax chose a green panda, and we all got to put hearts in it for his birthday, which was really fun. We were on a tight schedule, but even with a room full of Brenans, we managed to get to practice on time.
Coach Matt is awesome. Very fun, supportive, and a good guy. Ken did his assistant coaching duties, which was cool. I talked to a couple of the other moms. The other woman who was going to be team parent clearly had already bowed out of responsibilities. She and her kid showed up a half an hour late.
Bobby is not the worst player on the team! There is another kid who seems more interested in smelling the flowers. Super cute! It should be an interesting year. The coach’s son is a little bossy, but a good player. The rest of the team looks like a good mix, though.
After practice, we went to Benihanna’s. Yum! The boys had not been there aside from as a baby before. They enjoyed the show. Dax really seemed to enjoy it, complete with giant belly laughs for the egg sponge bob to the rice Mickey Mouse. It was a good time! The boys even liked their chicken, rice and corn! Bobby was amazing, trying everything. He tried zucchini, shrimp, soup, and even the salad. He didn’t even hesitate when it came to trying. I am so proud of him!
Dax loved his Appa and MoMo dolls. He was positively giddy. We also discussed that we need to paint the van to look like Appa. I am way on board with this.
Ken, Andy, the boys and Grandma and Grandpa watched Avatar-The Last Air Bender while I crawled into bed. I was tired. I still am. We got home much later than I go to bed.
Today, I have no idea what they are doing. Papa Brenan has some work to do, and they also want to work on the porch. There was talk of the Discovery Cube and possibly the boys going to Maria’s for Dax’s graduation.
I am stuck at work. I considered calling out, but Ken seemed to discourage it, so I came in. My plan at this point is to leave early (maybe in an hour or so) to go get all my errands done. I need to get a bunch of stuff, and this would also allow me to go home and straighten up a bit before cup caking tonight. I need to wrap Dax’s drums, too. Plus, if I head out of here around 8, I can probably get home by noon, if not earlier, and who knows, I might even be able to go with the family to the cube if they end up going.
Although I am way looking forward to Dax’s party tomorrow, I will be happy when it is done.
We did manage to get a free bouncer rental, though. Our neighbor and her sister are doing bouncer rentals now, so they are letting us use one for free! Woo hoo! That is $150 we don’t have to shell out. I am very excited.
Ok, need to do some work before I head out.
I am not even sure how I am typing this. I am pretty sure I am asleep.
Before we headed over to soccer practice, we stopped by Build a Bear where the boys got to make new friends. Dax chose a green panda, and we all got to put hearts in it for his birthday, which was really fun. We were on a tight schedule, but even with a room full of Brenans, we managed to get to practice on time.
Coach Matt is awesome. Very fun, supportive, and a good guy. Ken did his assistant coaching duties, which was cool. I talked to a couple of the other moms. The other woman who was going to be team parent clearly had already bowed out of responsibilities. She and her kid showed up a half an hour late.
Bobby is not the worst player on the team! There is another kid who seems more interested in smelling the flowers. Super cute! It should be an interesting year. The coach’s son is a little bossy, but a good player. The rest of the team looks like a good mix, though.
After practice, we went to Benihanna’s. Yum! The boys had not been there aside from as a baby before. They enjoyed the show. Dax really seemed to enjoy it, complete with giant belly laughs for the egg sponge bob to the rice Mickey Mouse. It was a good time! The boys even liked their chicken, rice and corn! Bobby was amazing, trying everything. He tried zucchini, shrimp, soup, and even the salad. He didn’t even hesitate when it came to trying. I am so proud of him!
Dax loved his Appa and MoMo dolls. He was positively giddy. We also discussed that we need to paint the van to look like Appa. I am way on board with this.
Ken, Andy, the boys and Grandma and Grandpa watched Avatar-The Last Air Bender while I crawled into bed. I was tired. I still am. We got home much later than I go to bed.
Today, I have no idea what they are doing. Papa Brenan has some work to do, and they also want to work on the porch. There was talk of the Discovery Cube and possibly the boys going to Maria’s for Dax’s graduation.
I am stuck at work. I considered calling out, but Ken seemed to discourage it, so I came in. My plan at this point is to leave early (maybe in an hour or so) to go get all my errands done. I need to get a bunch of stuff, and this would also allow me to go home and straighten up a bit before cup caking tonight. I need to wrap Dax’s drums, too. Plus, if I head out of here around 8, I can probably get home by noon, if not earlier, and who knows, I might even be able to go with the family to the cube if they end up going.
Although I am way looking forward to Dax’s party tomorrow, I will be happy when it is done.
We did manage to get a free bouncer rental, though. Our neighbor and her sister are doing bouncer rentals now, so they are letting us use one for free! Woo hoo! That is $150 we don’t have to shell out. I am very excited.
Ok, need to do some work before I head out.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
no time!
8-18-11
My little man is 5. How did this happen????
Yesterday after my abdominal scan, I went with Ken, Andy and the boys to the zoo. That was much fun. I got exercise and got to spend time with my boys, Ken and Andy! How cool is that??
Today, they went to the museum of natural history to see the dinosaur exhibit. I should have taken today off, but I am ok with this. I am considering taking tomorrow off, but I think I will just go home a little early so I can go shopping for the last minute party stuff. Besides, it is a whole Brenan crowd going, what with Grandma and Grandpa coming in town today.
This afternoon is Bobby’s first practice. I am quite excited. We then are all going to dinner at Bennihanna. Yay!
I know I have more to say, but I have been way swamped. It just seems like more and more stuff pops up.
Next week, things should settle and I can update more.
My little man is 5. How did this happen????
Yesterday after my abdominal scan, I went with Ken, Andy and the boys to the zoo. That was much fun. I got exercise and got to spend time with my boys, Ken and Andy! How cool is that??
Today, they went to the museum of natural history to see the dinosaur exhibit. I should have taken today off, but I am ok with this. I am considering taking tomorrow off, but I think I will just go home a little early so I can go shopping for the last minute party stuff. Besides, it is a whole Brenan crowd going, what with Grandma and Grandpa coming in town today.
This afternoon is Bobby’s first practice. I am quite excited. We then are all going to dinner at Bennihanna. Yay!
I know I have more to say, but I have been way swamped. It just seems like more and more stuff pops up.
Next week, things should settle and I can update more.
Monday, August 15, 2011
yay weekend!
8-15-11
What a fantastic weekend!
Friday evening I went to dinner with Stephanie. We went to Cozy’s since she had never been. Plus, it was a good way to park a little distance from the theatre to allow me to get in some exercise by walking. Dinner was yummy. I even splurged a little by splitting a skinny margarita.
We walked to the theatre and met Kam there. We were early, which meant we spent some time talking, which was really fun. I was happy that Kam and Stephanie hit it off. We then went in and saw one of the funniest flicks I have seen in for like ever. Stupid Crazy Love deserves like 18 thumbs up. It was fantastic. Brilliant performances. I don’t tend to like Ryan Gossling, but he was great in this. The twists even caught be off guard, which means I didn’t spend the movie doing the, “oh, I bet this will happen.” I loved it. I actually liked that it wasn’t all neatly wrapped up at the end. There was still a question.
After the flick we hung out in front of the theatre, talking, for like 2 hours! It was really fun and awesome and even though it was noted that I had been up for 22 hours when I arrived home, it was well worth it. We had talked about going up to Howl, but being how late it was, we have decided we will need to go up some time for the whole evening.
Ken let me sleep in on Saturday, but I just couldn’t get comfortable after about 7. I heard my phone ring and it was my mom. I called her back and she said she and my dad were coming by to bring me something from Trader Joe’s and to take a look at the roof. I told them to come on by.
They showed up about 10 minutes later. My mom handed me the Trader Joe’s bag. I assumed it was some diet food since they knew how I had been really working hard on this diet. Instead, I saw an Apple bag. Inside said Apple bag was my brand new iPad!! I almost died. I was so sleepy and out of it, I truly thought I was dreaming. My mom said it was just a small token of their affection for me. They are awesome!!
Saturday afternoon I put my new iPad (her name is Padme) to good use as I took notes for Bobby’s new soccer team. I am now a team parent, Ken an assistant coach. Bobby’s first practice is Thursday, which kind of blows if only because it is Dax’s birthday, but it is cool since Andy can come and watch. It is only an hour, so it isn’t like it will be a big deal, really. What is really fun is that it is on a field I used to practice at. In fact, it is the same field that Greg once drove me to after he had stopped to pick up a couch someone was throwing out. He ended up bringing the couch onto the field and read a book while I practiced. Yeah, that wasn’t odd or anything. Let’s just say my soccer team was less than impressed.
Saturday night Ken went out to see Highlander with Aaron and Chris. It meant I didn’t feel bad about going to bed super early. The boys crashed out quickly, leaving me to do whatever I pleased. I found myself being kind of random weepy. Stupid hormones. I also was exhausted, so I crawled into bed. I started to watch Chasing Amy, but I couldn’t keep my eyes open. Thankfully I fell asleep without too much concern for Stabby Joe.
Sunday was mellow.
Stalker Boy showed up bright and early to resume making a shaved ice stand with the boys. It seems like this kid just doesn’t like his own family or his family doesn’t like him. We met his mom, and at one point Saturday saw his dad yell for him. He looked like a stereotypical 50’s buff dad who was a drunk. He was standing in the street, yelling for him, and I got scared. It certainly makes sense as to why he seems to wish Ken was his father.
Speaking of this kid, he apparently has been influencing my children in other areas of life. On the way to my parents’ house on Friday, Bobby says to me, “Hey mom, did you know Jesus made us?” I replied, “No, I made you.”
He seemed annoyed at my response, and continued with his Jesus talk. He said that he and Dax believe in Jesus. I told him that was fine but that he should know that Ken and I did not. He was more confused. I told him that at this point, he truly should not be talking to his friend about this topic. He should, however, speak to a trusted adult. I suggested Stephanie since as I pointed out, she does believe and I know that she won’t brainwash my kids. LOL! I did also suggest Papa Brenan. Yes, this could backfire on me, but I think he knows that I don’t want him preaching to my kids. I would love it if they had information and were able to question everything and THEN decide how they feel. If they end up being faithful, good for them. I would be a little surprised, if only because of how they are influenced at home, but who am I to stop them. I would be pretty pissed if my parents had told me I had to only believe how they believe.
Bobby was confused as to why Ken’s parents believed in Jesus and that Ken didn’t. I pointed out that if he and Dax believed in Jesus, that their parents did not. I had to explain that just because you are kids or parents, it doesn’t mean you have to only believe what each other believe. You have to choose for yourself. Both the boys seemed to be cool with this.
I am torn in the idea of asking their friend to stop talking Jesus to them. But really, that isn’t a good idea on my part. These boys are going to be influenced by many people. The only thing I can do is make sure they understand questions are good, and that whatever they choose, I am behind them 100%. It is tough, though, on this topic only because I have seen idiot religious folks. Then again, I see a lot of idiot atheists. Hmm..maybe I need to just teach them everyone is an idiot until further testing is conducted.
I lost another 4 pounds. I know it is going to come off quickly at first. It makes sense. I have cut my calories down significantly. My stomach has already adapted to this. I have found myself getting full quicker, which is helpful when dieting.
I have so much to do this week. Today, I will work on finishing up any cleaning Ken didn’t get to today. Tomorrow, Andy is here. Wednesday, I have an ultrasound for my liver, and then we are going to the zoo. Thursday is Dax’s birthday and Bobby’s practice, and Friday I need to run around getting the last minute items, and then I am baking cupcakes. Saturday is the big day!
I suppose I should do some work this morning.
What a fantastic weekend!
Friday evening I went to dinner with Stephanie. We went to Cozy’s since she had never been. Plus, it was a good way to park a little distance from the theatre to allow me to get in some exercise by walking. Dinner was yummy. I even splurged a little by splitting a skinny margarita.
We walked to the theatre and met Kam there. We were early, which meant we spent some time talking, which was really fun. I was happy that Kam and Stephanie hit it off. We then went in and saw one of the funniest flicks I have seen in for like ever. Stupid Crazy Love deserves like 18 thumbs up. It was fantastic. Brilliant performances. I don’t tend to like Ryan Gossling, but he was great in this. The twists even caught be off guard, which means I didn’t spend the movie doing the, “oh, I bet this will happen.” I loved it. I actually liked that it wasn’t all neatly wrapped up at the end. There was still a question.
After the flick we hung out in front of the theatre, talking, for like 2 hours! It was really fun and awesome and even though it was noted that I had been up for 22 hours when I arrived home, it was well worth it. We had talked about going up to Howl, but being how late it was, we have decided we will need to go up some time for the whole evening.
Ken let me sleep in on Saturday, but I just couldn’t get comfortable after about 7. I heard my phone ring and it was my mom. I called her back and she said she and my dad were coming by to bring me something from Trader Joe’s and to take a look at the roof. I told them to come on by.
They showed up about 10 minutes later. My mom handed me the Trader Joe’s bag. I assumed it was some diet food since they knew how I had been really working hard on this diet. Instead, I saw an Apple bag. Inside said Apple bag was my brand new iPad!! I almost died. I was so sleepy and out of it, I truly thought I was dreaming. My mom said it was just a small token of their affection for me. They are awesome!!
Saturday afternoon I put my new iPad (her name is Padme) to good use as I took notes for Bobby’s new soccer team. I am now a team parent, Ken an assistant coach. Bobby’s first practice is Thursday, which kind of blows if only because it is Dax’s birthday, but it is cool since Andy can come and watch. It is only an hour, so it isn’t like it will be a big deal, really. What is really fun is that it is on a field I used to practice at. In fact, it is the same field that Greg once drove me to after he had stopped to pick up a couch someone was throwing out. He ended up bringing the couch onto the field and read a book while I practiced. Yeah, that wasn’t odd or anything. Let’s just say my soccer team was less than impressed.
Saturday night Ken went out to see Highlander with Aaron and Chris. It meant I didn’t feel bad about going to bed super early. The boys crashed out quickly, leaving me to do whatever I pleased. I found myself being kind of random weepy. Stupid hormones. I also was exhausted, so I crawled into bed. I started to watch Chasing Amy, but I couldn’t keep my eyes open. Thankfully I fell asleep without too much concern for Stabby Joe.
Sunday was mellow.
Stalker Boy showed up bright and early to resume making a shaved ice stand with the boys. It seems like this kid just doesn’t like his own family or his family doesn’t like him. We met his mom, and at one point Saturday saw his dad yell for him. He looked like a stereotypical 50’s buff dad who was a drunk. He was standing in the street, yelling for him, and I got scared. It certainly makes sense as to why he seems to wish Ken was his father.
Speaking of this kid, he apparently has been influencing my children in other areas of life. On the way to my parents’ house on Friday, Bobby says to me, “Hey mom, did you know Jesus made us?” I replied, “No, I made you.”
He seemed annoyed at my response, and continued with his Jesus talk. He said that he and Dax believe in Jesus. I told him that was fine but that he should know that Ken and I did not. He was more confused. I told him that at this point, he truly should not be talking to his friend about this topic. He should, however, speak to a trusted adult. I suggested Stephanie since as I pointed out, she does believe and I know that she won’t brainwash my kids. LOL! I did also suggest Papa Brenan. Yes, this could backfire on me, but I think he knows that I don’t want him preaching to my kids. I would love it if they had information and were able to question everything and THEN decide how they feel. If they end up being faithful, good for them. I would be a little surprised, if only because of how they are influenced at home, but who am I to stop them. I would be pretty pissed if my parents had told me I had to only believe how they believe.
Bobby was confused as to why Ken’s parents believed in Jesus and that Ken didn’t. I pointed out that if he and Dax believed in Jesus, that their parents did not. I had to explain that just because you are kids or parents, it doesn’t mean you have to only believe what each other believe. You have to choose for yourself. Both the boys seemed to be cool with this.
I am torn in the idea of asking their friend to stop talking Jesus to them. But really, that isn’t a good idea on my part. These boys are going to be influenced by many people. The only thing I can do is make sure they understand questions are good, and that whatever they choose, I am behind them 100%. It is tough, though, on this topic only because I have seen idiot religious folks. Then again, I see a lot of idiot atheists. Hmm..maybe I need to just teach them everyone is an idiot until further testing is conducted.
I lost another 4 pounds. I know it is going to come off quickly at first. It makes sense. I have cut my calories down significantly. My stomach has already adapted to this. I have found myself getting full quicker, which is helpful when dieting.
I have so much to do this week. Today, I will work on finishing up any cleaning Ken didn’t get to today. Tomorrow, Andy is here. Wednesday, I have an ultrasound for my liver, and then we are going to the zoo. Thursday is Dax’s birthday and Bobby’s practice, and Friday I need to run around getting the last minute items, and then I am baking cupcakes. Saturday is the big day!
I suppose I should do some work this morning.
Friday, August 12, 2011
new app
8-12-11
Ken has been using an app he found to keep track of exercise/calories. I downloaded it this morning. Hopefully this will be useful for me as well. Although, it already said that I didn’t exercise enough yesterday, which makes me sad.
Today might be my day off of exercise. I am going out tonight so it means I won’t have a chance to work out. Not a big deal, since I can just do my exercise tomorrow. Besides, as long as I keep doing as much as possible, then I can’t feel bad.
We are going to Cozymels tonight. I already looked up food there and it looks like my lower calorie option is fajitas. Yes, I could technically eat something else, but I want to be good especially today since I have no work out planned.
At this time, we have no idea when Ma and Pa Brenan are heading down. Apparently they decided they were off the hook for coming next week since the roof is done. Ken pointed out that they already planned the visit, and no roof just means more time with grandkids. This didn’t sound tempting to them. They may just be coming for Dax’s birthday. I am mostly fine with this. I told Ma last night that it was very important that they come to Dax’s party, so it sounds like at least that is a go. I am disappointed that they don’t seem jazzed about a week with grandchildren, but there is no point in getting worked up. I can get the kids to guilt them for me.
I am sleepy again this morning. I know it will go away. I just hate this. It is frustrating. I can sleep in tomorrow, so that is cool.
Tomorrow I also have a team meeting to go to. Bobby’s coach has called, so tomorrow Bobby will get his uniform and meet his other team mates. I have not heard from Dax’s coach yet, which worries me. I need to email them tomorrow if I don’t hear from the coach.
We won’t know what classrooms the boys will be in for school until the 29th, which is only a week before school starts.
I am so uninspired to work today. That will make for a long day here. I suppose I should find something to do.
Ken has been using an app he found to keep track of exercise/calories. I downloaded it this morning. Hopefully this will be useful for me as well. Although, it already said that I didn’t exercise enough yesterday, which makes me sad.
Today might be my day off of exercise. I am going out tonight so it means I won’t have a chance to work out. Not a big deal, since I can just do my exercise tomorrow. Besides, as long as I keep doing as much as possible, then I can’t feel bad.
We are going to Cozymels tonight. I already looked up food there and it looks like my lower calorie option is fajitas. Yes, I could technically eat something else, but I want to be good especially today since I have no work out planned.
At this time, we have no idea when Ma and Pa Brenan are heading down. Apparently they decided they were off the hook for coming next week since the roof is done. Ken pointed out that they already planned the visit, and no roof just means more time with grandkids. This didn’t sound tempting to them. They may just be coming for Dax’s birthday. I am mostly fine with this. I told Ma last night that it was very important that they come to Dax’s party, so it sounds like at least that is a go. I am disappointed that they don’t seem jazzed about a week with grandchildren, but there is no point in getting worked up. I can get the kids to guilt them for me.
I am sleepy again this morning. I know it will go away. I just hate this. It is frustrating. I can sleep in tomorrow, so that is cool.
Tomorrow I also have a team meeting to go to. Bobby’s coach has called, so tomorrow Bobby will get his uniform and meet his other team mates. I have not heard from Dax’s coach yet, which worries me. I need to email them tomorrow if I don’t hear from the coach.
We won’t know what classrooms the boys will be in for school until the 29th, which is only a week before school starts.
I am so uninspired to work today. That will make for a long day here. I suppose I should find something to do.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
the doctor update
8-11-11
Hello. My name is Gena and I am a diabetic.
I was able to meet with my diabetic doctor on Tuesday, and I am deeply in love with her, although, she had eyes for Stephanie. LOL! Either way, she was kind, informative, no nonsense, and patient. I know I am in good hands.
She was great in looking through my history. Turns out, I have had bad blood sugar numbers for some time. No doctor had ever done anything about it until my new PCP. Amusingly enough, my numbers were great while pregnant. I was born to be pregnant. My numbers also looked amazing in 2007 when I had dropped all that weight. We saw that this was a clear indicator that this is really what I need to do.
She was pleased with my progress already. With my new diet, exercise and meds, I have already been able to reduce my blood sugar numbers significantly. So much so, I should be able to go off the one med very soon and only take the one, but that will be taken 3 times a day.
I also have lost 6 pounds. I know, 6 sounds like nothing, but it is huge to me. It means I am on the right path. I have been rocking salads, cutting back on sugar, and doing my exercises. I feel really good. I do still feel tired, but the doctor said this would be normal for a while as my body gets used to less sugar.
It was extremely helpful having Stephanie there. She knew just the right questions, and she took extensive notes for me. Plus, moral support was awesome.
My doc canceled my cholesterol class, and instead signed me up for 4 weeks of diabetes classes. Those look great and interesting since it will be nice to know what I can and cannot do now that I have this. She also canceled my appointment with the “dietician” which turned out to only be some RN who really is just one of those last resorts for people who are not taking the diagnosis seriously. My doc was happy with my progress thus far, so I am encouraged on many levels.
The one thing she was very insistent on was that I take care of my feet. I need to pay attention to sores and sensitivity and really make sure I don’t lose circulation to them. Because of this, Stephanie treated me to a pedicure after the doc! Yay!
Yesterday morning was hectic.
We took Mama cat down to the clinic to get her spayed. It was a lot of chaos, but the good news is she is now done. Also, my kittens are on the web site, even though they have only one kitten pictured in all 4 shots. They are not ready for adoption yet, but they are getting ready!
After the clinic, we went to my follow up with my PCP. She was thrilled with my progress, and she agreed (so did the diabetes doc) that the meal replacement isn’t the way to go. She was supposed to cancel my appts yesterday, but I think I still need to call to cancel a couple others.
As we were leaving, it has been discovered that my car has a loose connection with the battery. It didn’t start. It did the same thing this morning. I am a little freaked about when I go home. Thank goodness Ken is home today.
After doctor, since I no longer had 2 other appointments, I went home and we all worked on cleaning the house. My levels were low, since I ended up not having a snack. I had a little bit of turkey, and that helped. I clearly will need to get this all figured out.
I was able to do my walk and aerobics. I always feel good after that. I look forward to them now. I know that I am burning calories and gaining endurance.
I took the boys to my folks’ for a while. I was able to explain to my parents what was going on with the diabetes. My dad still was offering something like Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers, but even my mom agreed, my best bet is to try to change my lifestyle rather than rely on their programs. I feel pretty ok with what I have been doing so far, so I think I can do this.
I started taking both meds in the morning now, and I noticed that it is dropping my blood sugar under 100. I think I will stop taking the one pill soon and up the other pill to twice a day in a couple days. I wanted to wait until my period was done since there is the possibility of GI issues, and I would like to make sure it is pill related instead of other factors.
I am pissed that multiple emails I sent regarding new account set up at work have gone unanswered. I was covering for this broad again this week, and there are so many issues, I don’t even want to vent about them. I had to complain about everything. Today may end up being a very long day.
Tomorrow I am going out with Stephanie, and possibly Kam to see Stupid Crazy Love. Should be fun. I think the plan is to go with Stephanie to Cozymels before hand since she has never been. I know, crazy, right?
I am looking forward to the weekend. Saturday morning should allow me to sleep in. I do have some party work, since we need to do some more clean up. Plus, I just realized that I will have company all next week! YIE!! House work galore!! Ken is going out to a movie Saturday night. I think the Brenans don’t show up until sometime Sunday or Monday. I suppose I should look into that!
Ok, back to work for me. Otherwise I will over stress about the next few days!
Hello. My name is Gena and I am a diabetic.
I was able to meet with my diabetic doctor on Tuesday, and I am deeply in love with her, although, she had eyes for Stephanie. LOL! Either way, she was kind, informative, no nonsense, and patient. I know I am in good hands.
She was great in looking through my history. Turns out, I have had bad blood sugar numbers for some time. No doctor had ever done anything about it until my new PCP. Amusingly enough, my numbers were great while pregnant. I was born to be pregnant. My numbers also looked amazing in 2007 when I had dropped all that weight. We saw that this was a clear indicator that this is really what I need to do.
She was pleased with my progress already. With my new diet, exercise and meds, I have already been able to reduce my blood sugar numbers significantly. So much so, I should be able to go off the one med very soon and only take the one, but that will be taken 3 times a day.
I also have lost 6 pounds. I know, 6 sounds like nothing, but it is huge to me. It means I am on the right path. I have been rocking salads, cutting back on sugar, and doing my exercises. I feel really good. I do still feel tired, but the doctor said this would be normal for a while as my body gets used to less sugar.
It was extremely helpful having Stephanie there. She knew just the right questions, and she took extensive notes for me. Plus, moral support was awesome.
My doc canceled my cholesterol class, and instead signed me up for 4 weeks of diabetes classes. Those look great and interesting since it will be nice to know what I can and cannot do now that I have this. She also canceled my appointment with the “dietician” which turned out to only be some RN who really is just one of those last resorts for people who are not taking the diagnosis seriously. My doc was happy with my progress thus far, so I am encouraged on many levels.
The one thing she was very insistent on was that I take care of my feet. I need to pay attention to sores and sensitivity and really make sure I don’t lose circulation to them. Because of this, Stephanie treated me to a pedicure after the doc! Yay!
Yesterday morning was hectic.
We took Mama cat down to the clinic to get her spayed. It was a lot of chaos, but the good news is she is now done. Also, my kittens are on the web site, even though they have only one kitten pictured in all 4 shots. They are not ready for adoption yet, but they are getting ready!
After the clinic, we went to my follow up with my PCP. She was thrilled with my progress, and she agreed (so did the diabetes doc) that the meal replacement isn’t the way to go. She was supposed to cancel my appts yesterday, but I think I still need to call to cancel a couple others.
As we were leaving, it has been discovered that my car has a loose connection with the battery. It didn’t start. It did the same thing this morning. I am a little freaked about when I go home. Thank goodness Ken is home today.
After doctor, since I no longer had 2 other appointments, I went home and we all worked on cleaning the house. My levels were low, since I ended up not having a snack. I had a little bit of turkey, and that helped. I clearly will need to get this all figured out.
I was able to do my walk and aerobics. I always feel good after that. I look forward to them now. I know that I am burning calories and gaining endurance.
I took the boys to my folks’ for a while. I was able to explain to my parents what was going on with the diabetes. My dad still was offering something like Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers, but even my mom agreed, my best bet is to try to change my lifestyle rather than rely on their programs. I feel pretty ok with what I have been doing so far, so I think I can do this.
I started taking both meds in the morning now, and I noticed that it is dropping my blood sugar under 100. I think I will stop taking the one pill soon and up the other pill to twice a day in a couple days. I wanted to wait until my period was done since there is the possibility of GI issues, and I would like to make sure it is pill related instead of other factors.
I am pissed that multiple emails I sent regarding new account set up at work have gone unanswered. I was covering for this broad again this week, and there are so many issues, I don’t even want to vent about them. I had to complain about everything. Today may end up being a very long day.
Tomorrow I am going out with Stephanie, and possibly Kam to see Stupid Crazy Love. Should be fun. I think the plan is to go with Stephanie to Cozymels before hand since she has never been. I know, crazy, right?
I am looking forward to the weekend. Saturday morning should allow me to sleep in. I do have some party work, since we need to do some more clean up. Plus, I just realized that I will have company all next week! YIE!! House work galore!! Ken is going out to a movie Saturday night. I think the Brenans don’t show up until sometime Sunday or Monday. I suppose I should look into that!
Ok, back to work for me. Otherwise I will over stress about the next few days!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
doctor time
8-9-11
My appt with the endocrinologist is today. Should be interesting. I will print out my chart of numbers, take my meds and monitor per request. I have seen lower numbers which either means my meds are working, or I have been doing good on my diet/exercise. I really really hope that it is more me than the meds.
I am very grateful that Stephanie is coming with me to the doc. I certainly need moral support, and she has an extensive medical background that will help me when it comes to asking the right questions, and understanding all the data. I am a little nervous.
I am also strangely anxious to hopefully get weighed. I would like to know where I am at. I have been dieting for about 6 days, so perhaps I will show some progress. Even a pound would be encouraging.
Tomorrow I am busy all morning. I take Mama cat to get her operation. Then I book it over to my main doctor. Then I go for my physical for the extreme diet. I have not canceled any of that yet. It is still a possibility. I figure I should at least do the leg work now in case I do decide since the cycles are so far apart.
I just realized none of my data for the appts tomorrow are in my calendar. I suppose I should change that.
I won’t be at work tomorrow, but I don’t even get to sleep in. Lame.
My appt with the endocrinologist is today. Should be interesting. I will print out my chart of numbers, take my meds and monitor per request. I have seen lower numbers which either means my meds are working, or I have been doing good on my diet/exercise. I really really hope that it is more me than the meds.
I am very grateful that Stephanie is coming with me to the doc. I certainly need moral support, and she has an extensive medical background that will help me when it comes to asking the right questions, and understanding all the data. I am a little nervous.
I am also strangely anxious to hopefully get weighed. I would like to know where I am at. I have been dieting for about 6 days, so perhaps I will show some progress. Even a pound would be encouraging.
Tomorrow I am busy all morning. I take Mama cat to get her operation. Then I book it over to my main doctor. Then I go for my physical for the extreme diet. I have not canceled any of that yet. It is still a possibility. I figure I should at least do the leg work now in case I do decide since the cycles are so far apart.
I just realized none of my data for the appts tomorrow are in my calendar. I suppose I should change that.
I won’t be at work tomorrow, but I don’t even get to sleep in. Lame.
Monday, August 8, 2011
The Roof
8-8-11
The roof is pretty much done! The only thing that needs to be done is some boards need to be replaced over the porch and the trim needs a paint job. But the bulk of it is looking quite good. There is still some clean up ahead of us. The roofers were not exactly careful when it came to their work, so there is still some debris in the front yard, but it only a couple hours’ worth of work to clean up.
I spent much of the weekend in new Gena mode. I walked multiple miles and used the Wii Fit each day. I am sore, but thrilled. The walking felt great. Luna was especially pleased, showing her appreciation by being extra squishy with me all weekend. I have determined that the boys should not go with me unless they are only on scooters, but even then, maybe not so much. This afternoon, it will just be Luna and I. She and I managed two plus miles on Saturday since it was just us.
I also loved doing some aerobics on the Wii. I did a little yoga to stretch out, but I think that may just be an extra. I did 30 minutes of the aerobics which was a lot of work, but good. I will do that when I get home from work.
I have determined that I need to invest in some exercise clothing.
Ken and the boys are going to some training session Ken has to teach today. He does this every summer where he trains coaches for the FLL. Hopefully the boys packed enough toys to be entertained.
My blood sugar has been getting better. I put myself on my own diet. We even went shopping and I have myself on an instant breakfast in the morning, a salad at lunch, and dinner I have a super small portion. I am going to see if with my own reduced diet and exercise plan works. I mentioned to my mom over the phone about the shake plan, and she offered again to pay for anything I chose. I have the physical for the shake program on Wednesday. I have the meeting with the doctor himself in two weeks. Depending on how things go over the next couple weeks, I will decide if I need to do the drastic approach of the shake. I am still hoping by changing my life, it will be better in the long run.
Right now, I am hoping my friends and family will continue to support me. Right now, I just need encouragement. I don’t want advice right now. I don’t want to be told I am doing something wrong. I have reduced my calories. I have added exercise. I have cut down on fat intake. I am drinking gobs of water. I have already seen some results. I even managed to make the boys rice krispie treats (per Bobby’s request) and not cheat. I ate less of the pork I made on Saturday because I preferred my salad. I didn’t even grill chicken for my salad today because I decided the lettuce itself was fine. I will probably add some chicken at some point for protein, but I was going for calorie reduction right now.
I washed the dogs yesterday. Poor Lycos was so covered in flea and blood from flea it was disturbing. We got her some Capstar and I used the flea shampoo on her again. After scrubbing her for like 20 minutes, scratching every section of her body, I think she actually felt pretty good. She wasn’t scratching most of the night. In fact, I don’t think I heard her scratch at all. Hopefully she got some relief.
Luna just needed a bath. She was filthy from the roof dust that coated her. She seemed to really enjoy the scrub down. As she was lying on her back, she looked so relaxed. It was very cute. Now she is all floofy and pretty. I love it.
I spent time on Saturday, too, working on our back yard. I cleared the driveway, picked up trash, and made it look pretty decent. There is still one pile that Ken and I need to go through because much of it goes back in the garage. But it should not take too long. In fact, he should be able to do that this week, along with putting the crap in the entry way in there. The house will be ready for guests!
I have been browsing the shelter web site. The South LA shelter had a litter of lab pups dropped off this past Saturday. So freaking cute! I sent Ken the link. I know, we don’t NEED another dog, but a pup that will play with Luna since poor Lycos is not doing well might be good for both my dogs. Lycos won’t have to deal with Luna and Luna has a companion. I don’t know that Ken would see it the same way. LOL!
I have changed my water additive. I got some oranges and some lemon juice so I can squeeze those in there. Yay!
Blood sugar after breakfast-129!! YAY!
It just occurred to me that Luna is 2. Wow! My pup is growing up. She was so good at Petsmart this weekend. I was very proud of her.
I am getting quite used to feeding Hal. I was worried the mouse thing would mess with me, but it is like watching my very own nature program every time we feed him. The boys enjoy watching, and honestly, it is super fascinating to see the whole process.
I painted my nails green for Dax’s sake. I hope he likes!
The roof is pretty much done! The only thing that needs to be done is some boards need to be replaced over the porch and the trim needs a paint job. But the bulk of it is looking quite good. There is still some clean up ahead of us. The roofers were not exactly careful when it came to their work, so there is still some debris in the front yard, but it only a couple hours’ worth of work to clean up.
I spent much of the weekend in new Gena mode. I walked multiple miles and used the Wii Fit each day. I am sore, but thrilled. The walking felt great. Luna was especially pleased, showing her appreciation by being extra squishy with me all weekend. I have determined that the boys should not go with me unless they are only on scooters, but even then, maybe not so much. This afternoon, it will just be Luna and I. She and I managed two plus miles on Saturday since it was just us.
I also loved doing some aerobics on the Wii. I did a little yoga to stretch out, but I think that may just be an extra. I did 30 minutes of the aerobics which was a lot of work, but good. I will do that when I get home from work.
I have determined that I need to invest in some exercise clothing.
Ken and the boys are going to some training session Ken has to teach today. He does this every summer where he trains coaches for the FLL. Hopefully the boys packed enough toys to be entertained.
My blood sugar has been getting better. I put myself on my own diet. We even went shopping and I have myself on an instant breakfast in the morning, a salad at lunch, and dinner I have a super small portion. I am going to see if with my own reduced diet and exercise plan works. I mentioned to my mom over the phone about the shake plan, and she offered again to pay for anything I chose. I have the physical for the shake program on Wednesday. I have the meeting with the doctor himself in two weeks. Depending on how things go over the next couple weeks, I will decide if I need to do the drastic approach of the shake. I am still hoping by changing my life, it will be better in the long run.
Right now, I am hoping my friends and family will continue to support me. Right now, I just need encouragement. I don’t want advice right now. I don’t want to be told I am doing something wrong. I have reduced my calories. I have added exercise. I have cut down on fat intake. I am drinking gobs of water. I have already seen some results. I even managed to make the boys rice krispie treats (per Bobby’s request) and not cheat. I ate less of the pork I made on Saturday because I preferred my salad. I didn’t even grill chicken for my salad today because I decided the lettuce itself was fine. I will probably add some chicken at some point for protein, but I was going for calorie reduction right now.
I washed the dogs yesterday. Poor Lycos was so covered in flea and blood from flea it was disturbing. We got her some Capstar and I used the flea shampoo on her again. After scrubbing her for like 20 minutes, scratching every section of her body, I think she actually felt pretty good. She wasn’t scratching most of the night. In fact, I don’t think I heard her scratch at all. Hopefully she got some relief.
Luna just needed a bath. She was filthy from the roof dust that coated her. She seemed to really enjoy the scrub down. As she was lying on her back, she looked so relaxed. It was very cute. Now she is all floofy and pretty. I love it.
I spent time on Saturday, too, working on our back yard. I cleared the driveway, picked up trash, and made it look pretty decent. There is still one pile that Ken and I need to go through because much of it goes back in the garage. But it should not take too long. In fact, he should be able to do that this week, along with putting the crap in the entry way in there. The house will be ready for guests!
I have been browsing the shelter web site. The South LA shelter had a litter of lab pups dropped off this past Saturday. So freaking cute! I sent Ken the link. I know, we don’t NEED another dog, but a pup that will play with Luna since poor Lycos is not doing well might be good for both my dogs. Lycos won’t have to deal with Luna and Luna has a companion. I don’t know that Ken would see it the same way. LOL!
I have changed my water additive. I got some oranges and some lemon juice so I can squeeze those in there. Yay!
Blood sugar after breakfast-129!! YAY!
It just occurred to me that Luna is 2. Wow! My pup is growing up. She was so good at Petsmart this weekend. I was very proud of her.
I am getting quite used to feeding Hal. I was worried the mouse thing would mess with me, but it is like watching my very own nature program every time we feed him. The boys enjoy watching, and honestly, it is super fascinating to see the whole process.
I painted my nails green for Dax’s sake. I hope he likes!
Friday, August 5, 2011
The Program
8-5-11
The orientation broke down a diet plan that consists of meal replacement. 5 shakes a day consisting of 100 calories each (I would have to consume more based on my BMI, which equates to needing 800 calories a day). This is the bare minimum on caloric intake. If you are still hungry or feeling faint, they want you to have another shake.
Shakes come 18 to a box, at $37 a box. You can technically get away with 2 boxes a week. Realistically, I would require 3 boxes, based on my caloric levels.
Each week I would have to (no exceptions. You must do this or you are kicked out of the program) go to the doctor weekly for a check-up, and immediately following this, I would be a part of a 90 minute meeting. Weekly, I would be spending from 6:00 to 8:30 every Monday night, down at Healthcare Partners.
Over the course of 3 months, it would cost $2300. I have rounded up from my actual breakdown since I want to make sure I factor in any possible issues.
It is expensive. It doesn’t sound too good to be true since if you truly are only consuming 800 calories a day, you will drop weight. There is no way around that. They encourage you to exercise, too. I would also have to consume lots of water (not a problem).
I brought this home, and Ken was skeptical. It sounds like a scam. It sounds like a way to get fat people to spend a lot of money to drop a lot of weight quickly, but then put it all back on once they eat normal food again. I could see his point, but when you are as scared and desperate as I was feeling, I was clinging on to this program as a last ditch effort to not be such a fat load.
In a release of a lot of tension, I cried and cried. It was out of fear. It was out exhaustion. It was way overdue.
My plan right now is to look into Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, and Lindora. I would like to see what their plans consist of and what the cost is. My dad had offered to pay for whatever I chose. I want to present the best course of action.
For now, I am changing my diet on my own. I have cut portions. I have added at least an apple a day. I have been doing my fiber. I will go to the store tonight to purchase salad makings for my lunches and get good snack items. I am hoping things like carrots, maybe more apples, and even just things like some of those 100 calorie packs will get me through the day.
If this doesn’t work, I may need to try this program.
My day was rough aside from all of this. I had to deal with bullshit politics at work. I have been informed that I have to once again cover for someone. She is out for only 2 days, but the issue is that she has volunteered to work from home since the only reason she can’t come in is that she needs someone home with her kid. So why in the fuck am I needing to cover?? Yes, it is all bullshit, and I am fighting this by playing ignorant. I need access to do her job, and only my manager can request it. Am I going to remind him of this? Not even a little bit.
In addition to that, we took the kittens to the shelter yesterday. There was a lot of drama with that. Last time we dropped off kittens, there was no issue. They were awesome. This time, they threatened to charge us, essentially acting as though this was an animal surrender. We pointed out that we were fostering them. They said that since we were not registered with them, it wasn’t through them. I told them that I had inquired about this on their Facebook page and that someone told me to hold on to them until they were three months or they would just go to another foster family. The shelter workers were not happy that one of their volunteers had set up a FB page without their knowledge.
As if that wasn’t bad enough, they said my kittens were only a month old. I told them their medical staff was incorrect, even providing evidence to the contrary. Even though they were healthy, they were under weight. The shelter finally agreed to get them fattened up for a few days, then they would be put on display for adoption.
Last time I bring kittens down there who are not fat, and last time I tell them I fostered them. I will simply need to tell them we just found them.
I have their numbers, and I will be monitoring them.
On the way to the shelter, Smokey decided to shit on me. It was not happy making.
I also gave up my Rudy, as much as it broke my heart.
I now am just counting down the couple hours before we go to our company meeting. That meeting will last from about 11:15 to noon. It will kill the last part of the day, and I get fed. This is happy making. Then I can go home. I can relax before the chaos tomorrow which will be the roof replacement.
I think tonight will be very mellow.
One last thing; I am so grateful for the gobs of support I have gotten from my friends and peeps on Facebook. Since the diabetes, I have felt an outpouring of love from people really routing for me to be healthy. Man, it really means the world to me.
The orientation broke down a diet plan that consists of meal replacement. 5 shakes a day consisting of 100 calories each (I would have to consume more based on my BMI, which equates to needing 800 calories a day). This is the bare minimum on caloric intake. If you are still hungry or feeling faint, they want you to have another shake.
Shakes come 18 to a box, at $37 a box. You can technically get away with 2 boxes a week. Realistically, I would require 3 boxes, based on my caloric levels.
Each week I would have to (no exceptions. You must do this or you are kicked out of the program) go to the doctor weekly for a check-up, and immediately following this, I would be a part of a 90 minute meeting. Weekly, I would be spending from 6:00 to 8:30 every Monday night, down at Healthcare Partners.
Over the course of 3 months, it would cost $2300. I have rounded up from my actual breakdown since I want to make sure I factor in any possible issues.
It is expensive. It doesn’t sound too good to be true since if you truly are only consuming 800 calories a day, you will drop weight. There is no way around that. They encourage you to exercise, too. I would also have to consume lots of water (not a problem).
I brought this home, and Ken was skeptical. It sounds like a scam. It sounds like a way to get fat people to spend a lot of money to drop a lot of weight quickly, but then put it all back on once they eat normal food again. I could see his point, but when you are as scared and desperate as I was feeling, I was clinging on to this program as a last ditch effort to not be such a fat load.
In a release of a lot of tension, I cried and cried. It was out of fear. It was out exhaustion. It was way overdue.
My plan right now is to look into Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, and Lindora. I would like to see what their plans consist of and what the cost is. My dad had offered to pay for whatever I chose. I want to present the best course of action.
For now, I am changing my diet on my own. I have cut portions. I have added at least an apple a day. I have been doing my fiber. I will go to the store tonight to purchase salad makings for my lunches and get good snack items. I am hoping things like carrots, maybe more apples, and even just things like some of those 100 calorie packs will get me through the day.
If this doesn’t work, I may need to try this program.
My day was rough aside from all of this. I had to deal with bullshit politics at work. I have been informed that I have to once again cover for someone. She is out for only 2 days, but the issue is that she has volunteered to work from home since the only reason she can’t come in is that she needs someone home with her kid. So why in the fuck am I needing to cover?? Yes, it is all bullshit, and I am fighting this by playing ignorant. I need access to do her job, and only my manager can request it. Am I going to remind him of this? Not even a little bit.
In addition to that, we took the kittens to the shelter yesterday. There was a lot of drama with that. Last time we dropped off kittens, there was no issue. They were awesome. This time, they threatened to charge us, essentially acting as though this was an animal surrender. We pointed out that we were fostering them. They said that since we were not registered with them, it wasn’t through them. I told them that I had inquired about this on their Facebook page and that someone told me to hold on to them until they were three months or they would just go to another foster family. The shelter workers were not happy that one of their volunteers had set up a FB page without their knowledge.
As if that wasn’t bad enough, they said my kittens were only a month old. I told them their medical staff was incorrect, even providing evidence to the contrary. Even though they were healthy, they were under weight. The shelter finally agreed to get them fattened up for a few days, then they would be put on display for adoption.
Last time I bring kittens down there who are not fat, and last time I tell them I fostered them. I will simply need to tell them we just found them.
I have their numbers, and I will be monitoring them.
On the way to the shelter, Smokey decided to shit on me. It was not happy making.
I also gave up my Rudy, as much as it broke my heart.
I now am just counting down the couple hours before we go to our company meeting. That meeting will last from about 11:15 to noon. It will kill the last part of the day, and I get fed. This is happy making. Then I can go home. I can relax before the chaos tomorrow which will be the roof replacement.
I think tonight will be very mellow.
One last thing; I am so grateful for the gobs of support I have gotten from my friends and peeps on Facebook. Since the diabetes, I have felt an outpouring of love from people really routing for me to be healthy. Man, it really means the world to me.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
better today
8-4-11
Happy dancing going on right now.
Ken spoke to a guy last night that is going to do the roof for a Papa Brenan approved pricing structure. WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
This roofing will take place on Saturday morning, where they will rip up the rest of the old roof, and then get to work on the new one. It will be done by professionals. It will be done quickly. They are even cleaning up the old debris. They will put it all in the bag bins Ken got.
When I found this out last night, I honestly was so happy I almost cried. As much as I enjoyed seeing things like the boys being filthy from all their hard work, I was glad they would not be going back up on the roof. I was thrilled that the crap on the ground would be gone much sooner than I had feared.
On top of that, Ken and the boys are cleaning my house today since as it was pointed out, they don’t need to work on the roof anymore.
I spent some extra time with my Rudy yesterday. She is so tiny! She only weighs a pound, so technically she can’t go to the shelter, although I am sure they will take her. Her sisters are easily 2 pounds. She is so sweet and I just adore the shit out of her. I think Ken is ignoring this so he doesn’t have to tell me not a chance in hell. She is such a sweetie.
Out house is still going to be in crazy mode over the next 2 weeks. Although we have just the 4 of us today and tomorrow, I don’t anticipate much sleeping in what with the roofing on Saturday morning. I wonder how long it will take.
New theory on Lycos, which Ken came up with. It makes a lot of sense. She has not seemed to respond to the flea treatments like Luna and the cats have. She is covered still. It is causing her to constantly scratch, which means her back legs never get rest, which means when she walks, she can’t. Ken is calling the doc this morning to see about getting her some Capstar to kill off what fleas she has so we can see if that helps.
Luna has enjoyed being harness free this last week. She plays in the pool when she wants, she runs after shadows, and seems super happy. Since Lycos can’t even climb up the stairs to the pool, we have not had to worry about her getting in the pool. Of course, once this flea thing is cleared up, we may need to be more careful.
I love having my phone. I can’t watch videos at work with sound, but I can pull most of them up on my phone or even my iTouch. I honestly don’t know how I managed before. LOL!
Have I mentioned this poking my finger thing sucks? I am getting used to it, even getting enough blood on just one poke now. Still, I find myself cringing just before I push the button to stab the needle in my finger. I know it will get better, but for now, it is not fun.
I got Doug’s memorial book in the mail yesterday. It wasn’t what I had expected. Cheryl and Ken (Ken being Sandra’s second husband, Cheryl being Ken’s newish wife, the same one that worked at our school) had essentially put together some photos from the memorial ride and gathering we had. It wasn’t filled with pictures of Doug, which would have been kind of nice. This was nice and all, but I guess I was hoping for something different.
Happy dancing going on right now.
Ken spoke to a guy last night that is going to do the roof for a Papa Brenan approved pricing structure. WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
This roofing will take place on Saturday morning, where they will rip up the rest of the old roof, and then get to work on the new one. It will be done by professionals. It will be done quickly. They are even cleaning up the old debris. They will put it all in the bag bins Ken got.
When I found this out last night, I honestly was so happy I almost cried. As much as I enjoyed seeing things like the boys being filthy from all their hard work, I was glad they would not be going back up on the roof. I was thrilled that the crap on the ground would be gone much sooner than I had feared.
On top of that, Ken and the boys are cleaning my house today since as it was pointed out, they don’t need to work on the roof anymore.
I spent some extra time with my Rudy yesterday. She is so tiny! She only weighs a pound, so technically she can’t go to the shelter, although I am sure they will take her. Her sisters are easily 2 pounds. She is so sweet and I just adore the shit out of her. I think Ken is ignoring this so he doesn’t have to tell me not a chance in hell. She is such a sweetie.
Out house is still going to be in crazy mode over the next 2 weeks. Although we have just the 4 of us today and tomorrow, I don’t anticipate much sleeping in what with the roofing on Saturday morning. I wonder how long it will take.
New theory on Lycos, which Ken came up with. It makes a lot of sense. She has not seemed to respond to the flea treatments like Luna and the cats have. She is covered still. It is causing her to constantly scratch, which means her back legs never get rest, which means when she walks, she can’t. Ken is calling the doc this morning to see about getting her some Capstar to kill off what fleas she has so we can see if that helps.
Luna has enjoyed being harness free this last week. She plays in the pool when she wants, she runs after shadows, and seems super happy. Since Lycos can’t even climb up the stairs to the pool, we have not had to worry about her getting in the pool. Of course, once this flea thing is cleared up, we may need to be more careful.
I love having my phone. I can’t watch videos at work with sound, but I can pull most of them up on my phone or even my iTouch. I honestly don’t know how I managed before. LOL!
Have I mentioned this poking my finger thing sucks? I am getting used to it, even getting enough blood on just one poke now. Still, I find myself cringing just before I push the button to stab the needle in my finger. I know it will get better, but for now, it is not fun.
I got Doug’s memorial book in the mail yesterday. It wasn’t what I had expected. Cheryl and Ken (Ken being Sandra’s second husband, Cheryl being Ken’s newish wife, the same one that worked at our school) had essentially put together some photos from the memorial ride and gathering we had. It wasn’t filled with pictures of Doug, which would have been kind of nice. This was nice and all, but I guess I was hoping for something different.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
funk
8-3-11
I have been in such great sleeps these last couple days. I really wish I didn’t have to get up.
I am livid pissed right now. I got home yesterday to find a pile of debris in the backyard. Mind you, it wasn’t in any kind of container. It was mostly in one spot, but there were several shingles with nails sticking straight up scattered around the base of the pile and not near the pile. My dogs were outside.
It was a mess that I had specifically asked to not have happen. Mind you, sitting in the entry way of our house are these collapsible bins that were purchased for this debris. They were still in the packaging, not used.
My boys were on the roof, helping. I wasn’t super happy about that. Bobby seemed fine. He was focused and really helping. Dax, on the other hand, is as clumsy as I am. Let’s not put him up on a roof. Especially when no one was really paying attention to him.
Dax came down when I got home. He and I both almost stepped on a nail. Luna almost did, too.
Oh, and there were breakfast dishes out, the one small project I asked to be completed was not, and overall, it wasn’t the house I wanted to come home to.
On August 20th, I wanted to have a party for Dax in my backyard. It will not happen there, now. I can’t risk putting children back there with the potential of nails being missed in the cleanup. My mom has offered up their house. I think I may take them up on it. I can fit the bouncer in their driveway, and I can use their bbq for the hot dogs.
I am under a lot of stress right now. Despite my brave face on this diabetes thing, I am freaked out. So to have this roof thing now become what I didn’t want it to become, I am in a tailspin of epic proportions.
I worry I took out my stress on Dax last night. He kept asking and asking for me to get him milk despite me telling him he could get it himself. I told him if he asked one more time he would go to bed. Within a few minutes, I would be carrying a kicking and screaming child into his bedroom, who was shouting, “Ok, mom, I will get it myself!”
Daniel goes home today. Although it has been a really nice visit, I will be glad to be back in my house without visitors for a few days. I have another week of company coming up soon. I am really much better at being a hermit, so it is hard for me to come out of my shell for this much time.
My blood sugar is high. Super high. I finally figured out how to get blood on the first poke. This morning, before food, it was at 191. Holy fuck. I have been taking my meds for only a few days, but it seems like it should be better at least by a bit. I take another reading in 45 minutes. I am charting it. I want to cry.
I forgot my apple today for snack. Thank goodness the refilled the snack box at work. And thank goodness I had 75 pennies to purchase some pretzels for my snack later.
I am considering walking on the treadmill at work today. Even if I don’t do that, a walk is in order this afternoon. I know the exercise will help with the stress.
I told the boys we would take them to the Wilson Park Trains on Sunday. That should be cool.
I haven’t sent out invites for Dax’s party. I have not reserved the bouncer. I have no party stuff at all.
I spoke to the Murrieta sheriff yesterday. He was very sweet. He was calling me back from my email inquiring about a police report for Doug. He said they didn’t really have the information I was looking for and he provided me with the coroner’s phone number. What he could tell me was that the house was all locked up and that Steve must have had a key or something to get in. He said it was an instant death. As for the exact time or date of death, he didn’t have any other information. It also sounds like truly, the date of death listed on the certificate is probably what they will say since it was open and shut and it isn’t like a lot of investigation needs to be done. I don’t know what to do with this info yet.
My parents were really cool yesterday about the diabetes info. My dad even offered to pay for something like weight watchers. I was kind of shocked at how generous they were on this one. I suppose they want their daughter to be healthy. Plus, my dad already lost one kid this year. He doesn’t need to lose another.
I was super jealous of their recent toy. They got an iPad! Awesome! It totally makes sense for them. I think they will love it. Although I did point out to them that I am hoping they don’t so they just give it to me. LOL!
I made an appointment for Mama Cat to be cut open on Wednesday of next week. Yay summer specials! The spay will only be $25. Not bad at all! I will need to take the kittens down there this weekend. As much as it would be fun to keep Rudy, I will not do so. I think I am just attaching to her since I really appreciated her purrs.
I just looked up online to see how long it takes for at least one of my meds to start to show a difference. It can take 6 weeks. I feel much better knowing that. It means that the change I assumed would already start to kick in will not show up for a while.
I feel a little bad yelling and bitching this morning in this blog. In all fairness, I have been unable to speak to Ken about any of this yet. He was busy, we had company and I was just too tired to wait up to talk to him when he came to bed. Being that we will be back to our normal occupancy this evening, I may be able to get these things off my chest long before he reads this.
I need to work. It is the only thing that will get me out of this funk.
I have been in such great sleeps these last couple days. I really wish I didn’t have to get up.
I am livid pissed right now. I got home yesterday to find a pile of debris in the backyard. Mind you, it wasn’t in any kind of container. It was mostly in one spot, but there were several shingles with nails sticking straight up scattered around the base of the pile and not near the pile. My dogs were outside.
It was a mess that I had specifically asked to not have happen. Mind you, sitting in the entry way of our house are these collapsible bins that were purchased for this debris. They were still in the packaging, not used.
My boys were on the roof, helping. I wasn’t super happy about that. Bobby seemed fine. He was focused and really helping. Dax, on the other hand, is as clumsy as I am. Let’s not put him up on a roof. Especially when no one was really paying attention to him.
Dax came down when I got home. He and I both almost stepped on a nail. Luna almost did, too.
Oh, and there were breakfast dishes out, the one small project I asked to be completed was not, and overall, it wasn’t the house I wanted to come home to.
On August 20th, I wanted to have a party for Dax in my backyard. It will not happen there, now. I can’t risk putting children back there with the potential of nails being missed in the cleanup. My mom has offered up their house. I think I may take them up on it. I can fit the bouncer in their driveway, and I can use their bbq for the hot dogs.
I am under a lot of stress right now. Despite my brave face on this diabetes thing, I am freaked out. So to have this roof thing now become what I didn’t want it to become, I am in a tailspin of epic proportions.
I worry I took out my stress on Dax last night. He kept asking and asking for me to get him milk despite me telling him he could get it himself. I told him if he asked one more time he would go to bed. Within a few minutes, I would be carrying a kicking and screaming child into his bedroom, who was shouting, “Ok, mom, I will get it myself!”
Daniel goes home today. Although it has been a really nice visit, I will be glad to be back in my house without visitors for a few days. I have another week of company coming up soon. I am really much better at being a hermit, so it is hard for me to come out of my shell for this much time.
My blood sugar is high. Super high. I finally figured out how to get blood on the first poke. This morning, before food, it was at 191. Holy fuck. I have been taking my meds for only a few days, but it seems like it should be better at least by a bit. I take another reading in 45 minutes. I am charting it. I want to cry.
I forgot my apple today for snack. Thank goodness the refilled the snack box at work. And thank goodness I had 75 pennies to purchase some pretzels for my snack later.
I am considering walking on the treadmill at work today. Even if I don’t do that, a walk is in order this afternoon. I know the exercise will help with the stress.
I told the boys we would take them to the Wilson Park Trains on Sunday. That should be cool.
I haven’t sent out invites for Dax’s party. I have not reserved the bouncer. I have no party stuff at all.
I spoke to the Murrieta sheriff yesterday. He was very sweet. He was calling me back from my email inquiring about a police report for Doug. He said they didn’t really have the information I was looking for and he provided me with the coroner’s phone number. What he could tell me was that the house was all locked up and that Steve must have had a key or something to get in. He said it was an instant death. As for the exact time or date of death, he didn’t have any other information. It also sounds like truly, the date of death listed on the certificate is probably what they will say since it was open and shut and it isn’t like a lot of investigation needs to be done. I don’t know what to do with this info yet.
My parents were really cool yesterday about the diabetes info. My dad even offered to pay for something like weight watchers. I was kind of shocked at how generous they were on this one. I suppose they want their daughter to be healthy. Plus, my dad already lost one kid this year. He doesn’t need to lose another.
I was super jealous of their recent toy. They got an iPad! Awesome! It totally makes sense for them. I think they will love it. Although I did point out to them that I am hoping they don’t so they just give it to me. LOL!
I made an appointment for Mama Cat to be cut open on Wednesday of next week. Yay summer specials! The spay will only be $25. Not bad at all! I will need to take the kittens down there this weekend. As much as it would be fun to keep Rudy, I will not do so. I think I am just attaching to her since I really appreciated her purrs.
I just looked up online to see how long it takes for at least one of my meds to start to show a difference. It can take 6 weeks. I feel much better knowing that. It means that the change I assumed would already start to kick in will not show up for a while.
I feel a little bad yelling and bitching this morning in this blog. In all fairness, I have been unable to speak to Ken about any of this yet. He was busy, we had company and I was just too tired to wait up to talk to him when he came to bed. Being that we will be back to our normal occupancy this evening, I may be able to get these things off my chest long before he reads this.
I need to work. It is the only thing that will get me out of this funk.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Diabetes
8-2-11
I now have my blood sugar monitor. Turns out I need practice on bleeding. I tried poking myself several times with not enough blood to trigger the machine. I ended up using Daniel’s poker for a few goes, which helped. When I finally was able to get a level, it was clear that it was high. Not awful, but high.
I checked it again 2 hours after dinner as advised. Holy crap, not good. Uber high. Even Daniel said I should be feeling icky. Of course, that put me in a slight panic.
This morning, I created an excel chart so I can map everything out. I figured I should probably get some numbers together, especially since my appt with the endocrinologist on Tuesday, and that will allow me to show her what I have going on. I also have 2 meds now instead of just the one. One med is supposed to tell my liver to produce less glucose. The other tells my pancreas to make more insulin. We shall see how this goes.
I am drinking more water than before. 1 gallon is now almost 2. This morning I had rice krispies for breakfast since they are low in calories. Tomorrow my snack will be an apple. Tonight when I get home I am going for a walk.
My appt on Thursday will hopefully get the real ball rolling on my new diet plan.
I know I need to go to the grocery store this weekend to load up on my new foods.
Ken and Daniel are going up on the roof today to prep an area for roofing. They are doing this to see how long it takes 2 people to pull up the roof so they can determine if it is worth doing ourselves, or if it is actually better to hire someone. I am hoping they hire someone.
Lycos is not well. Last night she was not real keen on eating her kibble. I busted out some wet food, which she did seem more inclined to eat. This was more of a test to see if she wasn’t hungry, or if she was having difficulty chewing, or if she just didn’t feel the need to chew kibble while standing since it was such a pain in the ass. Her back leg now just starts randomly thumping on the ground. She also spends a lot of time whining. Not sure if she hurts, if she itches, if she is pissed she can’t play, or if she is just upset about all of it. She has always done similar whines when it comes to Luna having fun. It really pisses her off that blonde dog is enjoying herself. She doesn’t seem to hurt, but it is so hard to say. Stupid dogs. I really wish they could talk. This would be so much easier.
Wow, I am glad I just re-read my fiber. I was not taking enough. I will change that right now!!
I now have my blood sugar monitor. Turns out I need practice on bleeding. I tried poking myself several times with not enough blood to trigger the machine. I ended up using Daniel’s poker for a few goes, which helped. When I finally was able to get a level, it was clear that it was high. Not awful, but high.
I checked it again 2 hours after dinner as advised. Holy crap, not good. Uber high. Even Daniel said I should be feeling icky. Of course, that put me in a slight panic.
This morning, I created an excel chart so I can map everything out. I figured I should probably get some numbers together, especially since my appt with the endocrinologist on Tuesday, and that will allow me to show her what I have going on. I also have 2 meds now instead of just the one. One med is supposed to tell my liver to produce less glucose. The other tells my pancreas to make more insulin. We shall see how this goes.
I am drinking more water than before. 1 gallon is now almost 2. This morning I had rice krispies for breakfast since they are low in calories. Tomorrow my snack will be an apple. Tonight when I get home I am going for a walk.
My appt on Thursday will hopefully get the real ball rolling on my new diet plan.
I know I need to go to the grocery store this weekend to load up on my new foods.
Ken and Daniel are going up on the roof today to prep an area for roofing. They are doing this to see how long it takes 2 people to pull up the roof so they can determine if it is worth doing ourselves, or if it is actually better to hire someone. I am hoping they hire someone.
Lycos is not well. Last night she was not real keen on eating her kibble. I busted out some wet food, which she did seem more inclined to eat. This was more of a test to see if she wasn’t hungry, or if she was having difficulty chewing, or if she just didn’t feel the need to chew kibble while standing since it was such a pain in the ass. Her back leg now just starts randomly thumping on the ground. She also spends a lot of time whining. Not sure if she hurts, if she itches, if she is pissed she can’t play, or if she is just upset about all of it. She has always done similar whines when it comes to Luna having fun. It really pisses her off that blonde dog is enjoying herself. She doesn’t seem to hurt, but it is so hard to say. Stupid dogs. I really wish they could talk. This would be so much easier.
Wow, I am glad I just re-read my fiber. I was not taking enough. I will change that right now!!
Monday, August 1, 2011
weekend was a win!
8-1-11
It was a busy weekend filled with good!
Friday was a little hectic stressful for me at first if only because Ken’s camp clean up took longer than I had hoped. He didn’t get home until close till 5:10, and then he had showed up with his dad and Daniel, and Papa Brenan insisted on trying to chat him up about the garden. I was frustrated since I had assumed Ken wanted to take a shower before we left, and I had been told that Lucille’s gets crowded. Thankfully, we got to the restaurant by 5:30 and it was not crowded at all.
The food was quite tasty. I took home enough for another meal (which just dawned on me was what I wanted to bring for lunch! Oops!) and would be quite happy with going back to the place.
Poor Ken was beat. Cleaning up that much Lego will take it out of ya.
We got to the movie with plenty of time. The crowd there was pretty awesome. It didn’t seem to be filled with a bunch of teens. It was actually mostly people older than us. They were fun and cheered at the right parts, and there were even a couple of funny comments made that made everyone laugh. Even a bad movie can be made better with a good crowd.
Not saying this was bad at all, mind you. I really enjoyed it. It was a little freakier than I had expected, but the story was fun and the cast rocked. You forget how good Harrison Ford can be. He was great. At one point he even did his quirky little smile, which yes, was kind of one of those take you out of the movie moments, but it was awesome coming from him.
I don’t know what to do with Daniel Craig.
He is amazing, mind you. He was perfectly cast for this role and he was kick ass and funny and sweet and just all around cool. But something about him makes me unsure. First off, his piercing blue eyes were super distracting. They looked fake! But I knew they were not. Also, he isn’t standard hot. He is grizzled and looks like he has been around for a long ass time. I am not a James Bond person, but I have to say, I would be curious to see him in the role, now. I think he probably pulls it off quite well.
My darling Olivia was wonderful. I will so leave it at that since she left me speechless.
We pulled up to the house at the exact time that Papa Brenan was dropping off Daniel. Perfect timing!
I went and got the boys in the morning at around 7:30. I truly didn’t expect Papa Brenan at the house so early. We got back around 9 and they were just getting started on the roofing adventures. The boys ended up playing with NB, which gave me my own time to do my own project!
I tackled the bedroom. It often becomes the dumping ground for items cleaned up from every other room in the house. I figure the only people who end up going into our room is Ken and I, and the boys. I don’t worry about some of the clutter. I decided it was time to clean up said clutter!
I was very proud of my progress. I did gobs of laundry, put away the stacks of blankets we had in the room. It made the room so much nicer!
By the time I was done with that, the tree trimming was done and Papa Brenan, Ken and Daniel were now working on the front part of the roof. They pulled down panels from above the porch, and then broke them all up to put in the trash. Bobby was their awesome helper on all of this. He took the mallet and broke down the bigger panels and then put them in the trash. He loved it! It was really cool to have him so involved.
Dax and I helped, but mostly I kept him entertained since he was sad Bobby wasn’t playing with him and he wanted company. He wanted me to shave his head. He really wants to be Aang. I talked him out of it for now. Now, don’t get me wrong. I know it is only hair. I know it will grow back. Honestly, I have no issue whatsoever in helping him out with this quest. The problem is, I worry he will be upset at some point either in the middle of cutting or even after when at which point I can’t fix it. He is kind of impulsive and doesn’t think through his actions.
Our compromise is in the costume we are getting him for Halloween, which is an Aang one. It comes with its very own bald cap complete with Air Bender arrow already on there. I showed him that he could wear that as much as he wanted, but still have his hair. He liked this idea much better.
We all went to bed early in Saturday night since the plan was to get up early for Disneyland. Ken and I were up by 5, and it occurs to Ken that he didn’t check the passes to see if they even worked on Sunday. Turned out, not so much. It would cost $200 to allow the four of us in. Way out of budget right now. Daniel got up right as we figured this out, and thankfully he was ok with us not going. Of course, he could be pissed, but he hid it well. I think we were all just happy to be able to go back to bed for a few hours.
We ended up going to the Discovery Cube instead. It is no Disneyland, but we did have fun. There is a lot of stuff to do there, and there was laughing and good times had.
We left there around 2. There was some talk of going somewhere else, but thankfully we all agreed, it was so time to go home, watch a movie and just relax.
Daniel mostly hung out by himself in his room, which makes sense. I would get tired of us after a while, too. LOL!
The boys played in the pool while I chilled with my kittens. The dogs were thrilled since we hung out with them as well. It was a good evening.
My poor Lycos is looking rough. We are starting to wonder if it is not just hip dysplasia, but something nerve related. I looked it up, and there is some kind of nerve issue in the spinal cord that has been known to effect labs, and those symptoms seem to match her, too, including things like her front leg issues. Either way, it is not curable and it means that across the board, we will need to just make sure Lycos is happy and comfortable. She swam a bit on Saturday. I didn’t let her go more than 15 minutes. Even that was a lot on her. She couldn’t get up the stairs to the pool the rest of the weekend.
MTV is 30 years old today. Wow.
There is no camp this week, so I am hoping that it means Ken can work on things like the kitchen for me. I am also going to set them to work tomorrow on getting the driveway all cleaned up so that Dax’s party doesn’t look like it is taking place in redneck country.
I realize I forgot all my paperwork at home. Not a big deal since I can make all the calls when I get home. I have referrals for what seems like 100 doctors. My new doc is on the ball! She has me going to an eye doctor, an endocrinologist, and a bunch of other items. What is nice on all of this is that it is part of my medical insurance. I mean, sure, I have eye insurance, but it isn’t as good as my medical. It means I can get my eyes done on that dime. Yes, I should be freaking out about all of this being related to diabetes, but I also know that it means I can get all of this taken care of so I don’t get it. My levels are still under an official diagnosis. I am thinking of trying to make more of my appointments on the 17th since it seems to be doctor day for me. Especially since all of them are in the same building!
My day looks to be boring. Hopefully I can get really into my work today so I can make it fly by.
It was a busy weekend filled with good!
Friday was a little hectic stressful for me at first if only because Ken’s camp clean up took longer than I had hoped. He didn’t get home until close till 5:10, and then he had showed up with his dad and Daniel, and Papa Brenan insisted on trying to chat him up about the garden. I was frustrated since I had assumed Ken wanted to take a shower before we left, and I had been told that Lucille’s gets crowded. Thankfully, we got to the restaurant by 5:30 and it was not crowded at all.
The food was quite tasty. I took home enough for another meal (which just dawned on me was what I wanted to bring for lunch! Oops!) and would be quite happy with going back to the place.
Poor Ken was beat. Cleaning up that much Lego will take it out of ya.
We got to the movie with plenty of time. The crowd there was pretty awesome. It didn’t seem to be filled with a bunch of teens. It was actually mostly people older than us. They were fun and cheered at the right parts, and there were even a couple of funny comments made that made everyone laugh. Even a bad movie can be made better with a good crowd.
Not saying this was bad at all, mind you. I really enjoyed it. It was a little freakier than I had expected, but the story was fun and the cast rocked. You forget how good Harrison Ford can be. He was great. At one point he even did his quirky little smile, which yes, was kind of one of those take you out of the movie moments, but it was awesome coming from him.
I don’t know what to do with Daniel Craig.
He is amazing, mind you. He was perfectly cast for this role and he was kick ass and funny and sweet and just all around cool. But something about him makes me unsure. First off, his piercing blue eyes were super distracting. They looked fake! But I knew they were not. Also, he isn’t standard hot. He is grizzled and looks like he has been around for a long ass time. I am not a James Bond person, but I have to say, I would be curious to see him in the role, now. I think he probably pulls it off quite well.
My darling Olivia was wonderful. I will so leave it at that since she left me speechless.
We pulled up to the house at the exact time that Papa Brenan was dropping off Daniel. Perfect timing!
I went and got the boys in the morning at around 7:30. I truly didn’t expect Papa Brenan at the house so early. We got back around 9 and they were just getting started on the roofing adventures. The boys ended up playing with NB, which gave me my own time to do my own project!
I tackled the bedroom. It often becomes the dumping ground for items cleaned up from every other room in the house. I figure the only people who end up going into our room is Ken and I, and the boys. I don’t worry about some of the clutter. I decided it was time to clean up said clutter!
I was very proud of my progress. I did gobs of laundry, put away the stacks of blankets we had in the room. It made the room so much nicer!
By the time I was done with that, the tree trimming was done and Papa Brenan, Ken and Daniel were now working on the front part of the roof. They pulled down panels from above the porch, and then broke them all up to put in the trash. Bobby was their awesome helper on all of this. He took the mallet and broke down the bigger panels and then put them in the trash. He loved it! It was really cool to have him so involved.
Dax and I helped, but mostly I kept him entertained since he was sad Bobby wasn’t playing with him and he wanted company. He wanted me to shave his head. He really wants to be Aang. I talked him out of it for now. Now, don’t get me wrong. I know it is only hair. I know it will grow back. Honestly, I have no issue whatsoever in helping him out with this quest. The problem is, I worry he will be upset at some point either in the middle of cutting or even after when at which point I can’t fix it. He is kind of impulsive and doesn’t think through his actions.
Our compromise is in the costume we are getting him for Halloween, which is an Aang one. It comes with its very own bald cap complete with Air Bender arrow already on there. I showed him that he could wear that as much as he wanted, but still have his hair. He liked this idea much better.
We all went to bed early in Saturday night since the plan was to get up early for Disneyland. Ken and I were up by 5, and it occurs to Ken that he didn’t check the passes to see if they even worked on Sunday. Turned out, not so much. It would cost $200 to allow the four of us in. Way out of budget right now. Daniel got up right as we figured this out, and thankfully he was ok with us not going. Of course, he could be pissed, but he hid it well. I think we were all just happy to be able to go back to bed for a few hours.
We ended up going to the Discovery Cube instead. It is no Disneyland, but we did have fun. There is a lot of stuff to do there, and there was laughing and good times had.
We left there around 2. There was some talk of going somewhere else, but thankfully we all agreed, it was so time to go home, watch a movie and just relax.
Daniel mostly hung out by himself in his room, which makes sense. I would get tired of us after a while, too. LOL!
The boys played in the pool while I chilled with my kittens. The dogs were thrilled since we hung out with them as well. It was a good evening.
My poor Lycos is looking rough. We are starting to wonder if it is not just hip dysplasia, but something nerve related. I looked it up, and there is some kind of nerve issue in the spinal cord that has been known to effect labs, and those symptoms seem to match her, too, including things like her front leg issues. Either way, it is not curable and it means that across the board, we will need to just make sure Lycos is happy and comfortable. She swam a bit on Saturday. I didn’t let her go more than 15 minutes. Even that was a lot on her. She couldn’t get up the stairs to the pool the rest of the weekend.
MTV is 30 years old today. Wow.
There is no camp this week, so I am hoping that it means Ken can work on things like the kitchen for me. I am also going to set them to work tomorrow on getting the driveway all cleaned up so that Dax’s party doesn’t look like it is taking place in redneck country.
I realize I forgot all my paperwork at home. Not a big deal since I can make all the calls when I get home. I have referrals for what seems like 100 doctors. My new doc is on the ball! She has me going to an eye doctor, an endocrinologist, and a bunch of other items. What is nice on all of this is that it is part of my medical insurance. I mean, sure, I have eye insurance, but it isn’t as good as my medical. It means I can get my eyes done on that dime. Yes, I should be freaking out about all of this being related to diabetes, but I also know that it means I can get all of this taken care of so I don’t get it. My levels are still under an official diagnosis. I am thinking of trying to make more of my appointments on the 17th since it seems to be doctor day for me. Especially since all of them are in the same building!
My day looks to be boring. Hopefully I can get really into my work today so I can make it fly by.
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